(RECORDED BY Dr. UMESH CHANDRA DATTA).
One day at Jayrambati the Mother said, "Look, my child, in my young days I would see a young girl who resembled me moving with me and helping me in all my work. She used to have fun and frolic with me. This continued till I was ten or eleven years old."
One day the Mother said, "Sometime after the passing away of the Master, I began to see the vision of a bearded Sannyasin who asked me to perform panchatapa.
In the beginning I didn't pay much attention to it. I hardly knew what panchatapa
was. But the Sannyasin gradually put pressure on me. So I asked Yogin about panchatapa,
and she said, Very good, Mother, I shall also perform it.' Arrangements were made for panchatapa.
I was then living in Nilambar Babu's house. Blazing fires of dried cow-dung were lighted on four sides, and there was the intense heat of the sun above. After my morning bath I approached the fires and saw them burning brightly. I was seized with much fear. I wondered how I would be able to enter the area and remain seated there until sunset. But repeating the name of the Master, I entered the area and the fires seemed to have lost their heat. I practised this discipline for seven days. But, my child, it made my complexion dark like black ash. After this I didn't see that figure of the Sannyasin again."
Once I asked, "Mother, the Master remarked that those who take refuge in him are living their last birth. Now, what will be the fate of those who take refuge in you?"
What else will happen, my child? The same is the case here too.
Mother, what will happen to those who receive spiritual initiation from you but do not perform Japa and meditation at all?
What else will happen? Why do you worry so much? The desires in your mind-you must first fulfil them. Later on you will attain to eternal peace in the Ramakrishna Loka. The Master has created a new kingdom for all of you.
A certain devotee forgot the method of counting Japa on his fingers and so wrote me a letter asking me to get it clarified from the