Vijay, the Brahmo preacher — Tendencies from previous births — Suicide after the vision of God — Four classes of men — Parable of the fish and the net — Worldly-minded forget their lessons — Bondage removed by strong renunciation — Parable of the two farmers — Attachment to "woman" creates bondage — Story of Govindaji's priests — Story of twelve hundred nedas — Degrading effect of serving others — Worshipping woman as Divine Mother — Difficulties of preaching — Ego alone the cause of bondage — Maya creates upadhis — Seven planes of the mind — Indescribability of highest plane — The "wicked I" — The "servant I" — The "ego of a devotee" — Path of bhakti is easy — Prema-bhakti — Purity of heart — God's grace is the ultimate help — Vision of Divine Mother — God's nature like that of a child — Two ways of God-realization — Constant practice urged.
Thursday, December 14, 1882
IT WAS AFTERNOON. Sri Ramakrishna was
sitting on his bed after a short
noonday rest. Vijay, Balaram, M., and a few other devotees were sitting
on the floor with their faces toward the Master. They could see the
sacred
river Ganges through the door. Since it was winter all were wrapped up
in
warm clothes. Vijay had been suffering from colic and had brought some
medicine with him.
Vijay was a paid preacher in the Sadharan Brahmo Samaj, but there were
many things about which he could not agree with the Samaj authorities.
He came from a very noble family of Bengal noted for its piety and
other
spiritual qualities. Advaita Goswami, one of his remote ancestors, had
been
an intimate companion of Sri Chaitanya. Thus the blood of a great lover
of God flowed in Vijay's veins. As an adherent of the Brahmo Samaj,
Vijay
no doubt meditated on the formless Brahman; but his innate love of God,
inherited from his distinguished ancestors, had merely been waiting for
the
proper time to manifest itself in all its sweetness. Thus Vijay was
irresistibly
attracted by the God-intoxicated state of Sri Ramakrishna and often
sought
his company. He would listen to the Master's words with great respect,
and
they would dance together in an ecstasy of divine love.
It was a week-day. Generally devotees came to the Master in large
numbers
on Sundays; hence those who wanted to have intimate talks with him
visited
him on week-days.
A boy named Vishnu, living in Ariadaha, had recently committed suicide
by cutting his throat with a razor. The talk turned to him.
MASTER: "I felt very badly when I heard of the boy's passing away. He
was a pupil in a school and he used to come here. He would often say to
me that he couldn't enjoy worldly life. He had lived with some
relatives
in the western provinces and at that time used to meditate in solitude,
in the
meadows, hills, and forests. He told me he had visions of many divine
forms.
"Perhaps this was his last birth. He must have finished most of his
duties
in his previous birth. The little that had been left undone was perhaps
finished in this one.
"One must admit the existence of tendencies inherited from previous
births. There is a story about a man who practised the sava-sadhana.
(A religious practice prescribed by the Tantra, in
which the aspirant uses a sava, or corpse, as his seat for meditation.)
He worshipped the Divine Mother in a deep forest. First he saw many
terrible
visions. Finally a tiger attacked and killed him. Another man,
happening to
pass and seeing the approach of the tiger, had climbed a tree.
Afterwards
he got down and found all the arrangements for worship at hand. He
performed some purifying ceremonies and seated himself on the corpse.
No
sooner had he done a little japa than the Divine Mother appeared before
him and said: 'My child, I am very much pleased with you. Accept a boon
from Me.' He bowed low at the Lotus Feet of the Goddess and said: 'May
I ask You one question, Mother? I am speechless with amazement at Your
action. The other man worked so hard to get the ingredients for Your
worship
and tried to propitiate You for such a long time, but You didn't
condescend to show him Your favour. And I, who don't know anything of
worship, who have done nothing, who have neither devotion nor knowledge
nor love, and who haven't practised any austerities, am receiving so
much
of Your grace.' The Divine Mother said with a laugh; 'My child, you
don't
remember your previous births. For many births you tried to propitiate
Me
through austerities. As a result of those austerities all these things
have come
to hand, and you have been blessed with My vision. Now ask Me your
boon.'"
A DEVOTEE: "I am frightened to hear of the suicide."
MASTER: "Suicide is a heinous sin, undoubtedly. A man who kills himself
must return again and again to this world and suffer its agony.
"But I don't call it suicide if a person leaves his body after having
the
vision of God. There is no harm in giving up one's body that way. After
attaining Knowledge some people give up their bodies. After the gold
image
has been cast in the clay mould, you may either preserve the mould or
break it.
"Many years ago a young man of about twenty used to come to the temple
garden from Baranagore: his name was Gopal Sen. In my presence he used
to experience such intense ecstasy that Hriday had to support him for
fear
he might fall to the ground and break his limbs. That young man touched
my feet one day and said: 'Sir. I shall not be able to see you any
more. Let
me bid you good-bye.' A few days later I learnt that he had given up
his
body.
"It is said that there are four classes of human beings: the bound,
those
aspiring after liberation, the liberated, and the ever-perfect.
"This world is like a fishing net. Men are the fish, and God, whose
maya
has created this world, is the fisherman. When the fish are entangled
in the
net, some of them try to tear through its meshes in order to get their
liberation.
They are like the men striving after liberation. But by no means all
of them escape. Only a few jump out of the net with a loud splash, and
then people say, 'Ah! There goes a big one!' In like manner, three or
four
men attain liberation. Again, some fish are so careful by nature that
they
are never caught in the net; some beings of the ever-perfect class,
like Narada,
are never entangled in the meshes of worldliness. Most of the fish are
trapped; but they are not conscious of the net and of their imminent
death.
No sooner are they entangled than they run headlong, net and all,
trying to
hide themselves in the mud. They don't make the least effort to get
free.
On the contrary, they go deeper and deeper into the mud. These fish are
like the bound men. They are still inside the net, but they think they
are
quite safe there. A bound creature is immersed in worldliness, in
'woman
and gold', having gone deep into the mire of degradation. But still he
believes
he is quite happy and secure. The liberated, and the seekers after
liberation, look on the world as a deep well. They do not enjoy it.
Therefore,
after the attainment of Knowledge, the realization of God, some give
up their bodies. But such a thing is rare indeed.
"The bound creatures, entangled in worldliness, will not come to their
senses at all. They suffer so much misery and agony, they face so many
dangers, and yet they will not wake up.
"The camel loves to eat thorny bushes. The more it eats the thorns, the
more the blood gushes from its mouth. Still it must eat thorny plants
and
will never give them up. The man of worldly nature suffers so much
sorrow
and affliction, but he forgets it all in a few days and begins his old
life over
again. Suppose a man has lost his wife or she has turned unfaithful.
Lo!
He marries again.
"Or take the instance of a mother: her son dies and she suffers bitter
grief; but after a few days she forgets all about it. The mother, so
overwhelmed
with sorrow a few days before, now attends to her toilet and puts
on her jewelry. A father becomes bankrupt through the marriage of his
daughters, yet he goes on having children year after year. People are
ruined
by litigation, yet they go to court all the same. There are men who
cannot
feed the children they have, who cannot clothe them or provide decent
shelter for them; yet they have more children every year.
"Again, the worldly man is like a snake trying to swallow a mole. The
snake can neither swallow the mole nor give it up. The bound soul may
have realized that there is no substance to the world — that the world
is like
a hog plum, only stone and skin — but still he cannot give it up and
turn
his mind to God.
"I once met a relative of Keshab Sen, fifty years old. He was playing
cards. As if the time had not yet come for him to think of God!
"There is another characteristic of the bound soul. If you remove him
from his worldly surroundings to a spiritual environment, he will pine
away.
The worm that grows in filth feels very happy there. It thrives in
filth. It
will die if you put it in a pot of rice."
All remained silent.
VIJAY: "What must the bound soul's condition of mind be in order to
achieve liberation?"
MASTER: "He can free himself from attachment to 'woman and gold' if,
by the grace of God, he cultivates a spirit of strong renunciation.
What is
this strong renunciation? One who has only a mild spirit of
renunciation
says, 'Well, all will happen in the course of time; let me now simply
repeat
the name of God.' But a man possessed of a strong spirit of
renunciation
feels restless for God, as the mother feels for her own child. A man of
strong
renunciation seeks nothing but God. He regards the world as a deep well
and feels as if he were going to be drowned in it. He looks on his
relatives
as venomous snakes; he wants to fly away from them. And he does go
away.
He never thinks, 'Let me first make some arrangement for my family and
then I shall think of God.' He has great inward resolution.
"Let me tell you a story about strong renunciation. At one time there
was
a drought in a certain part of the country. The farmers began to cut
long
channels to bring water to their fields. One farmer was stubbornly
determined.
He took a vow that he would not stop digging until the channel
connected his field with the river. He set to work. The time came for
his
bath, and his wife sent their daughter to him with oil. 'Father,' said
the
girl, 'it is already late. Rub your body with oil and take your bath.'
'Go
away!' thundered the farmer. 'I have too much to do now.' It was past
midday,
and the farmer was still at work in his field. He didn't even think of
his bath. Then his wife came and said: 'Why haven't you taken your
bath?
The food is getting cold. You overdo everything. You can finish the
rest
tomorrow or even today after dinner.' The farmer scolded her furiously
and
ran at her, spade in hand, crying: 'What? Have you no sense? There's no
rain. The crops are dying. What will the children eat? You'll all
starve to
death. I have taken a vow not to think of bath and food today before I
bring
water to my field.' The wife saw his state of mind and ran away in
fear.
Through a whole day's back-breaking labour the farmer managed by
evening
to connect his field with the river. Then he sat down and watched the
water flowing into his field with a murmuring sound. His mind was
filled
with peace and joy. He went home, called his wife, and said to her,
'Now
give me some oil and prepare me a smoke.' With serene mind he finished
his bath and meal, and retired to bed, where he snored to his heart's
content.
The determination he showed is an example of strong renunciation.
"Now, there was another farmer who was also digging a channel to bring
water to his field. His wife, too, came to the field and said to him:
'It's very
late. Come home. It isn't necessary to overdo things.' The farmer
didn't
protest much, but put aside his spade and said to his wife, 'Well, I'll
go home
since you ask me to.' (All laugh.) That man never
succeeded in irrigating
his field. This is a case of mild renunciation.
"As without strong determination the farmer cannot bring water to his
field, so also without intense yearning a man cannot realize God. (To
Vijay Why don't you come here now as frequently as before?"
VIJAY: "Sir, I wish to very much, but I am not free. I have accepted
work
in the Brahmo Samaj."
MASTER: "It is 'woman and gold' that binds man and robs him of his
freedom. It is woman that creates the need for gold. For woman one man
becomes the slave of another, and so loses his freedom. Then he cannot
act
as he likes.
"The priests in the temple of Govindaji at Jaipur were celibates at
first,
and at that time they had fiery natures. Once the King of Jaipur sent
for
them, but they didn't obey him. They said to the messenger, 'Ask the
king
to come to see us.' After consultation, the king and his ministers
arranged
marriages for them. From then on the king didn't have to send for them.
They would come to him of themselves and say: 'Your Majesty, we have
come with our blessings. Here are the sacred flowers of the temple.
Deign
to accept them.' They came to the palace, for now they always wanted
money
for one thing or another: the building of a house, the rice-taking
ceremony
of their babies, or the rituals connected with the beginning of their
children's education.
"There is the story of the twelve hundred nedas
(Literally, "shaven-headed". Among the Vaishnava devotees, those who
renounce
the world shave their heads.) and thirteen hundred
nedis. (Vaishnava nuns.)
Virabhadra, the son of Nityananda Goswami, had thirteen hundred
'shaven-headed' disciples. They attained great spiritual powers. That
alarmed
their teacher. 'My disciples have acquired great spiritual powers',
thought
Virabhadra. 'Whatever they say to people will come to pass. Wherever
they
go they may create alarming situations; for people offending them
unwittingly
will come to grief.' Thinking thus, Virabhadra one day called them
to him and said, 'See me after performing your daily devotions on the
bank
of the Ganges.' These disciples had such a high spiritual nature that,
while
meditating, they would go into samadhi and be unaware of the river
water
flowing over their heads during the flood-tide. Then the ebb-tide would
come and still they would remain absorbed in meditation.
"Now, one hundred of these disciples had anticipated what their teacher
would ask of them. Lest they should have to disobey his injunctions,
they
had quickly disappeared from the place before he summoned them. So they
did not go to Virabhadra with the others. The remaining twelve hundred
disciples went to the teacher after finishing their meditation.
Virabhadra
said to them: 'These thirteen hundred nuns will serve you. I ask you to
marry
them.' 'As you please, revered sir', they said. 'But one hundred of us
have
gone away.' Thenceforth each of these twelve hundred disciples had a
wife.
Consequently they all lost their spiritual power. Their austerities did
not
have their original fire. The company of woman robbed them of their
spirituality
because it destroyed their freedom.
(To Vijay) "You yourself perceive how far you have
gone down by being
a servant of others. Again, one finds that people with many university
degrees, scholars with their vast English education, accept service
under their
English masters and are daily trampled under their boots. The one cause
of
all this is woman. They have married and set up a 'gay fair' with their
wives and children. Now they cannot go back, much as they would like
to.
Hence all these insults and humiliations, all this suffering from
slavery.
"Once a man realizes God through intense dispassion, he is no longer
attached to woman. Even if he must lead the life of a householder, he
is
free from fear of and attachment to woman. Suppose there are two
magnets,
one big and the other small. Which one will attract the iron? The big
one,
of course. Cod is the big magnet. Compared to Him, woman is a small
one.
What can 'woman' do?"
A DEVOTEE: "Sir, shall we hate women then?"
MASTER: "He who has realized God does not look upon a woman with
the eye of lust; so he is not afraid of her. He perceives clearly that
women
are but so many aspects of the Divine Mother. He worships them all as
the
Mother Herself.
(To Vijay) "Come here now and then. I like to see
you very much."
VIJAY: "I have to do my various duties in the Brahmo Samaj; that is why
I can't always come here. But I shall visit you whenever I find it
possible."
MASTER (to Vijay): "The task of a religious teacher
is indeed difficult.
One cannot teach men without a direct command from God. People won't
listen to you if you teach without such authority. Such teaching has no
force behind it. One must first of all attain God through spiritual
discipline
or some other means. Thus armed with authority from God, one can
deliver lectures.
"After receiving the command from God, one can be a teacher and give
lectures anywhere. He who receives authority from God also receives
power
from Him. Only then can he perform the difficult task of a teacher.
"An insignificant tenant was once engaged in a lawsuit with a big
landlord.
People realized that there was a powerful man behind the tenant.
Perhaps another big landlord was directing the case from behind. Man is
an
insignificant creature. He cannot fulfil the difficult task of a
teacher without
receiving power direct from God."
VIJAY: "Don't the teachings of the Brahmo Samaj bring men salvation?"
MASTER; "How is it ever possible for one man to liberate another from
the bondage of the world? God alone, the Creator of this
world-bewitching
maya can save men from maya. There is no other refuge but that great
Teacher, Satchidananda. How is it ever possible for men who have not
realized God or received His command, and who are not strengthened with
divine strength, to save others from the prison-house of the world?
"One day as I was passing the Panchavati on my way to the pine-grove,
I heard a bullfrog croaking. I thought it must have been seized by a
snake.
After some time, as I was coming back, I could still hear its terrified
croaking.
I looked to see what was the matter, and found that a water-snake had
seized it. The snake could neither swallow it nor give it up. So there
was no
end to the frogs suffering. I thought that had it been seized by a
cobra it
would have been silenced after three croaks at the most. As it was only
a
water-snake, both of them had to go through this agony. A man's ego is
destroyed after three croaks, as it were, if he gets into the clutches
of a real
teacher. But if the teacher is an 'unripe' one, then both the teacher
and the
disciple undergo endless suffering. The disciple cannot get rid either
of his
ego or of the shackles of the world. If a disciple falls into the
clutches of an
incompetent teacher, he doesn't attain liberation."
VIJAY: "Sir, why are we bound like this? Why don't we see God?"
MASTER: "Maya is nothing but the egotism of the embodied soul. This
egotism has covered everything like a veil. 'All troubles come to an
end when
the ego dies.' If by the grace of God a man but once realizes that he
is not
the doer, then he at once becomes a jivanmukta. Though living in the
body,
he is liberated. He has nothing else to fear.
"This maya, that is to say, the ego, is like a cloud. The sun cannot be
seen on account of a thin patch of cloud; when that disappears one sees
the sun. If by the grace of the guru one's ego vanishes, then one sees
God.
"Rama, who is God Himself, was only two and a half cubits ahead of
Lakshmana. But Lakshmana couldn't see Him because Sita stood between
them. Lakshmana may be compared to the jiva, and Sita to maya. Man
cannot see God on account of the barrier of maya. Just look: I am
creating
a barrier in front of my face with this towel. Now you can't see me,
even
though I am so near. Likewise, God is the nearest of all, but we cannot
see
Him on account of this covering of maya.
"The jiva is nothing but the embodiment of Satchidananda. But since
maya, or ego, has created various upadhis, he has forgotten his real
Self.
"Each upadhi changes man's nature. If he wears a fine black-bordered
cloth, you will at once find him humming Nidhu Babu's love-songs. Then
playing-cards and a walking-stick follow. If even a sickly man puts on
high
boots, he begins to whistle and climbs the stairs like an Englishman,
jumping
from one step to another. If a man but holds a pen in his hand, he
scribbles
on any paper he can get hold of — such is the power of the pen!
"Money is also a great upadhi. The possession of money makes such a
difference in a man! He is no longer the same person. A brahmin used to
frequent the temple garden. Outwardly he was very modest. One day I
went
to Konnagar with Hriday. No sooner did we get off the boat than we
noticed
the brahmin seated on the bank of the Ganges. We thought he had been
enjoying the fresh air. Looking at us, he said: 'Hello there, priest!
How do
you do?' I marked his tone and said to Hriday: 'The man must have got
some money. That's why he talks that way.' Hriday laughed.
"A frog had a rupee, which he kept in his hole. One day an elephant
was going over the hole, and the frog, coming out in a fit of anger,
raised
his foot, as if to kick the elephant, and said, 'How dare you walk over
my
head?' Such is the pride that money begets!
"One can get rid of the ego after the attainment of Knowledge. On
attaining
Knowledge one goes into samadhi, and the ego disappears. But it is very
difficult to obtain such Knowledge.
"It is said in the Vedas that a man experiences samadhi when his mind
ascends to the seventh plane. The ego can disappear only when one goes
into samadhi. Where does the mind of a man ordinarily dwell? In the
first
three planes. These are at the organs of evacuation and generation, and
at
the navel. Then the mind is immersed only in worldliness, attached to
'woman and gold'. A man sees the light of God when his mind dwells in
the plane of the heart. He sees the light arid exclaims: 'Ah! What is
this?
What is this?' The next plane is at the throat. When the mind dwells
there
he likes to hear and talk only of God. When the mind ascends to the
next
plane, in the forehead, between the eyebrows, he sees the form of
Satchidananda
and desires to touch and embrace It. But he is unable to do so. It
is like the light in a lantern, which you can see but cannot touch. You
feel
as if you were touching the light, but in reality you are not. When the
mind
reaches the seventh plane, then the ego vanishes completely and the man
goes into samadhi."
VIJAY : "What does a man see when he attains the Knowledge of Brahman
after reaching the seventh plane?"
MASTER: "What happens when the mind reaches the seventh plane cannot
not be described.
"Once a boat enters the 'black waters' of the ocean, it does not
return.
Nobody knows what happens to the boat after that. Therefore the boat
cannot give us any information about the ocean.
"Once a salt doll went to measure the depth of the ocean. No sooner did
it enter the water than it melted. Now who could tell how deep the
ocean
was? That which could have told about its depth had melted. Reaching
the
seventh plane, the mind is annihilated; man goes into samadhi. What he
feels then cannot be described in words.
"The 'I' that makes one a worldly person and attaches one to 'woman and
gold' is the 'wicked I'. The intervention of this ego creates the
difference
between jiva and Atman. Water appears to be divided into two parts if
one
puts a stick across it. But in reality there is only one water. It
appears as
two on account of the stick. This 'I' is the stick. Remove the stick
and there
remains only one water as before.
"Now, what is this 'wicked I'? It is the ego that says: 'What? Don't
they
know me? I have so much money! Who is wealthier than I?' If a thief
robs
such a man of only ten rupees, first of all he wrings the money out of
the
thief, then he gives him a good beating. But the matter doesn't end
there:
the thief is handed over to the police and is eventually sent to jail.
The
'wicked I' says: 'What? Doesn't the rogue know whom he has robbed? To
steal my ten rupees! How dare he?'"
VIJAY: "If without destroying the 'I' a man cannot get rid of
attachment
to the world and consequently cannot experience samadhi, then it would
be
wise for him to follow the path of Brahmajnana to attain samadhi. If
the
'I' persists in the path of devotion, then one should rather choose the
path
of knowledge."
MASTER: "It is true that one or two can get rid of the 'I' through
samadhi;
but these cases are very rare. You may indulge in thousands of
reasonings,
but still the 'I' comes back. You may cut the peepal-tree to the very
root
today, but you will notice a sprout springing up tomorrow. Therefore if
the
'I' must remain, let the rascal remain as the 'servant I'. As long as
you live,
you should say, 'O God, Thou art the Master and I am Thy servant.' The
'I' that feels, 'I am the servant of God, I am His devotee' does not
injure
one. Sweet things cause acidity of the stomach, no doubt, but sugar
candy
is an exception.
"The path of knowledge is very difficult. One cannot obtain Knowledge
unless one gets rid of the feeling that one is the body. In the
Kaliyuga the
life of man is centred on food. He cannot get rid of the feeling that
he is the
body. and the ego. Therefore the path of devotion is prescribed for
this cycle.
This is an easy path. You will attain God if you sing His name and
glories
and pray to Him with a longing heart. There is not the least doubt
about it.
"Suppose you draw a line on the surface of water with a bamboo stick.
The water appears to be divided into two parts; but the line doesn't
remain
for any length of time. The 'servant I' or the 'devotee I' or the
'child I' is
only a line drawn with the ego and is not real."
VIJAY (to the Master): "Sir, you ask us to renounce
the 'wicked I'. Is
there any harm in the 'servant I'?"
MASTER: "The 'servant I' — that is, the feeling, 'I am the servant of
God,
I am the devotee of God' — does not injure one. On the contrary, it
helps one
to realize God."
VIJAY: "Well, sir, what becomes of the lust, anger, and other passions
of
one who keeps the 'servant I'?"
MASTER: "If a man truly feels like that, then he has only the semblance
of lust, anger, and the like. If, after attaining God, he looks on
himself as
the servant or the devotee of God, then he cannot injure anyone. By
touching
ing the philosopher's stone a sword is turned into gold. It keeps the
appearance
of a sword but cannot injure.
"When the dry branch of a coconut palm drops to the ground, it leaves
only a mark on the trunk indicating that once there was a branch at
that
place. In like manner, he who has attained God keeps only an appearance
of ego; there remains in him only a semblance of anger and lust. He
becomes like a child. A child has no attachment to the three gunas —
sattva,
rajas, and tamas. He becomes as quickly detached from a thing as he
becomes
attached to it. You can cajole him out of a cloth worth five rupees
with a
doll worth an anna, though at first he may say with great
determination:
'No, I won't give it to you. My daddy bought it for me.' Again, all
persons
are the same to a child. He has no feeling of high and low in regard to
persons. So he doesn't discriminate about caste. If his mother tells
him that
a particular man should be regarded as an elder brother, the child will
eat
from the same plate with him, though the man may belong to the low
caste of a blacksmith. The child doesn't know hate, or what is holy or
unholy.
"Even after attaining samadhi, some retain the 'servant ego' or the
'devotee
ego'. The bhakta keeps this 'I-consciousness'. He says, 'O God, Thou
art the
Master and I am Thy servant; Thou art the Lord and I am Thy devotee.'
He feels that way even after the realization of God. His 'I' is not
completely
effaced. Again, by constantly practising this kind of
'I-consciousness', one
ultimately attains God. This is called bhaktiyoga.
"One can attain the Knowledge of Brahman, too, by following the path of
bhakti. God is all-powerful. He may give His devotee Brahmajnana also,
if
He so wills. But the devotee generally doesn't seek the Knowledge of
the
Absolute. He would rather have the consciousness that God is the Master
and he the servant, or that God is the Divine Mother and he the child."
VIJAY: "But those who discriminate according to the Vedanta philosophy
also realize Him in the end, don't they?"
MASTER: "Yes, one may reach Him by following the path of discrimination
too: that is called jnanayoga. But it is an extremely difficult path. I
have told
you already of the seven planes of consciousness. On reaching the
seventh
plane the mind goes into samadhi. If a man acquires the firm knowledge
that Brahman alone is real and the world illusory, then his mind merges
in
samadhi. But in the Kaliyuga the life of a man depends entirely on
food.
How can he have the consciousness that Brahman alone is real and the
world illusory? In the Kaliyuga it is difficult to have the feeling, 'I
am not
the body, I am not the mind, I am not the twenty-four cosmic
principles; I
am beyond pleasure and pain, I am above disease and grief, old age and
death.' However you may reason and argue, the feeling that the body is
identical with the soul will somehow crop up from an unexpected
quarter.
You may cut a peepal-tree to the ground and think it is dead to its
very
root, but the next morning you will find a new sprout shooting up from
the dead stump. One cannot get rid of this identification with the
body;
therefore the path of bhakti is best for the people of the Kaliyuga. It
is an
easy path.
"And, 'I don't want to become sugar; I want to eat it.' I never feel
like
saving, 'I am Brahman.' I say, 'Thou art my Lord and I am Thy servant.'
It is better to make the mind go up and down between the fifth and
sixth
planes, like a boat racing between two points. I don't want to go
beyond
the sixth plane and keep my mind a long time in the seventh. My desire
is to sing the name and glories of God. It is very good to look on God
as
the Master and oneself as His servant. Further, you see, people speak
of
the waves as belonging to the Ganges; but no one says that the Ganges
belongs to the waves. The feeling, 'I am He', is not wholesome. A man
who
entertains such an idea, while looking on his body as the Self, causes
himself
great harm. He cannot go forward in spiritual life; he drags himself
down.
He deceives himself as well as others. He cannot understand his own
state
of mind.
"But it isn't any and every kind of bhakti that enables one to realize
God.
One cannot realize God without prema-bhakti. Another name for
prema-bhakti
is raga-bhakti.
(Supreme love, which makes one attached only
to God.)
God cannot be realized without love and longing.
Unless one has learnt to love God, one cannot realize Him.
"There is another kind of bhakti, known as vaidhi-bhakti, according to
which one must repeat the name of God a fixed number of times, fast,
make
pilgrimages, worship God with prescribed offerings, make so many
sacrifices,
and so forth and so on. By continuing such practices a long time one
gradually acquires raga-bhakti. God cannot be realized until one has
raga-bhakti.
One must love God. In order to realize God one must be completely
free from worldliness and direct all of one's mind to Him.
"But some acquire raga-bhakti directly. It is innate in them. They have
it from their very childhood. Even at an early age they weep for God.
An
instance of such bhakti is to be found in Prahlada. Vaidhi-bhakti is
like
moving a fan to make a breeze. One needs the fan to make the breeze.
Similarly, one practises japa, austerity, and fasting, in order to
acquire love
of God. But the fan is set aside when the southern breeze blows of
itself.
Such actions as japa and austerity drop away when one spontaneously
feels
love and attachment for God. Who, indeed, will perform the ceremonies
enjoined in the scriptures, when mad with love of God?
"Devotion to God may be said to be 'green' so long as' it doesn't grow
into love of God; but it becomes 'ripe' when it has grown into such
love.
"A man with 'green' bhakti cannot assimilate spiritual talk and
instruction;
but one with 'ripe' bhakti can. The image that falls on a photographic
plate
covered with black film
(Silver nitrate.)
is retained. On the other hand, thousands of images
may be reflected on a bare piece of glass, but not one of them is
retained.
As the object moves away, the glass becomes the same as it was before.
One
cannot assimilate spiritual instruction unless one has already
developed love
of God."
VIJAY: "Is bhakti alone sufficient for the attainment of God, for His
vision?"
MASTER: "Yes, one can see God through bhakti alone. But it must be
'ripe' bhakti, prema-bhakti and raga-bhakti. When one has that bhakti,
one
loves God even as the mother loves the child, the child the mother, or
the
wife the husband.
"When one has such love and attachment for God, one doesn't feel the
attraction of maya to wife, children, relatives, and friends. One
retains only
compassion for them. To such a man the world appears a strange land, a
place where he has merely to perform his duties. It is like a man's
having his
real home in the country, but coming to Calcutta for work; he has to
rent a
house in Calcutta for the sake of his duties. When one develops love of
God, one completely gets rid of one's attachment to the world and
worldly
wisdom.
"One cannot see God if one has even the slightest trace of worldliness.
Match-sticks, if damp, won't strike fire though you rub a thousand of
them
against the match-box. You only waste a heap of sticks. The mind soaked
in
worldliness is such a damp match-stick. Once Sri Radha said to her
friends
that she saw Krishna everywhere — both within and without. The friends
answered: 'Why, we don't see Him at all. Are you delirious?' Radha
said,
'Friends, paint your eves with the collyrium of divine love, and then
you
will see Him.'
(To Vijay) "It is said in a song of your Brahmo
Samaj:
O Lord, is it ever possible to know Thee without love,
However much one may perform worship and sacrifice?
"If the devotee but once feels this attachment and ecstatic
love for God,
this mature devotion and longing, then he sees God in both His aspects,
with form and without form."
VIJAY: "How can one see God?"
MASTER: "One cannot see God without purity of heart. Through attachment
to 'woman and gold' the mind has become stained — covered with dirt,
as it were. A magnet cannot attract a needle if the needle is covered
with
mud. Wash away the mud and the magnet will draw it. Likewise, the dirt
of the mind can be washed away with the tears of our eyes. This stain
is
removed if one sheds tears of repentance and says, 'O God, I shall
never
again do such a thing.' Thereupon God, who is like the magnet, draws to
Himself the mind, which is like the needle. Then the devotee goes into
samadhi and obtains the vision of God.
"You may try thousands of times, but nothing can be achieved without
God's grace. One cannot see God without His grace. Is it an easy thing
to
receive the grace of God? One must altogether renounce egotism; one
cannot
see God as long as one feels, 'I am the doer.' Suppose, in a family, a
man
has taken charge of the store-room; then if someone asks the master,
'Sir,
will you yourself kindly give me something from the store-room?', the
master
says to him: 'There is already someone in the store-room. What can I do
there?'
"God doesn't easily appear in the heart of a man who feels himself to
be
his own master. But God can be seen the moment His grace descends. He
is
the Sun of Knowledge. One single ray of His has illumined the world
with
the light of knowledge. That is how we are able to see one another and
acquire varied knowledge. One can see God only if He turns His light
toward His own face.
"The police sergeant goes his rounds in the dark of night with a
lantern
(A reference to the lantern carried by the night-watch, which has dark
glass
on three sides.)
in his hand. No one sees his face; but with the help of that light the
sergeant
sees everybody's face, and others, too, can see one another. If you
want to
see the sergeant, however, you must pray to him: 'Sir, please turn the
light
on your own face. Let me see you.' In the same way one must pray to
God:
'O Lord, be gracious and turn the light of knowledge on Thyself, that I
may see Thy face.'
"A house without light indicates poverty. So one must light the lamp of
Knowledge in one's heart. As it is said in a song:
Lighting the lamp of Knowledge in the chamber of your heart,
Behold the face of the Mother, Brahman's Embodiment."
As Vijay had brought medicine with him, the Master asked a devotee to give him some water. He was indeed a fountain of infinite compassion. He had arranged for Vijay's boat fare, since the latter was too poor to pay it. Vijay, Balaram, M., and the other devotees left for Calcutta in a country boat.
Monday, January 1, 1883
At eight o'clock in the morning Sri Ramakrishna was seated on
a mat
spread on the floor of his room at Dakshineswar. Since it was a cold
day, he
had wrapped his body in his moleskin shawl. Prankrishna and M. were
seated in front of him. Rakhal, too, was in the room. Prankrishna was a
high
government official and lived in Calcutta. Since he had had no
offspring by
his first wife, with her permission he had married a second time. By
the
second wife he had a son. Because he was rather stout, the Master
addressed
him now and then as "the fat brahmin". He had great respect for Sri
Ramakrishna.
Though a householder, Prankrishna studied the Vedanta and had
been heard to say: "Brahman alone is real and the world illusory. I am
He."
The Master used to say to him: "In the Kaliyuga the life of a man
depends
on food. The path of devotion prescribed by Narada is best for this
age."
A devotee had brought a basket of jilipi for the Master, which the
latter
kept by his side. Eating a bit of the sweets, he said to Prankrishna
with a
smile: "You see, I chant the name of the Divine Mother; so I get all
these
good things to eat. (Laughter.) But She doesn't give
such fruits as
gourd or
pumpkin. She bestows the fruit of Amrita, Immortality — knowledge,
love,
discrimination, renunciation, and so forth."
A boy six or seven years old entered the room. The Master himself
became
like a child. He covered the contents of the basket with the palm of
his
hand, as a child does to conceal sweets from another child lest the
latter
should snatch them. Then he put the basket aside.
Suddenly the Master went into samadhi and sat thus a long time. His
body was transfixed, his eyes wide open and unwinking, his breathing
hardly
perceptible. After a long time he drew a deep breath, indicating his
return
to the world of sense.
MASTER (to Prankrishna): "My Divine Mother is not
only formless,
She has forms as well. One can see Her forms. One can behold Her
incomparable
beauty through feeling and love. The Mother reveals Herself to Her
devotees in different forms.
"I saw Her yesterday. She was clad in a seamless ochre-coloured
garment,
and She talked with me.
"She came to me another day as a Mussalman girl six or seven years old.
She had a tilak on her forehead and was naked. She walked with me,
joking
and frisking like a child.
"At Hriday's house I had a vision of Gauranga. He wore a black-bordered
cloth.
"Haladhari used to say that God is beyond both Being and Non-being. I
told the Mother about it and asked Her, 'Then is the divine form an
illusion?'
The Divine Mother appeared to me in the form of Rati's mother and
said, 'Do thou remain in bhava.'1
I repeated this to Haladhari. Now and
then I forget Her command and suffer. Once I broke my teeth because I
didn't remain in bhava. So I shall remain in bhava unless I receive a
revelation
from heaven or have a direct experience to the contrary. I shall follow
the path of love. What do you say?"
PRANKRISHNA: "Yes, sir."
MASTER: "But why should I ask you about it? There is Someone within
me who does all these things through me. At times I used to remain in a
mood of Godhood and would enjoy no peace of mind unless I were being
worshipped.
"I am the machine and God is the Operator. I act as He makes me act.
I speak as He makes me speak.
Keep your raft, says Ramprasad, afloat on
the sea of life,
Drifting up with the flood-tide, drifting down with the ebb.
"It is like the cast-off leaf before a gale; sometimes it is
blown to a good
place and sometimes into the gutter, according to the direction of the
wind.
"As the weaver said in the story: 'The robbery was committed by the
will
of Rama, I was arrested by the police by the will of Rama, and again,
by
the will of Rama, I was set free.'
"Hanuman once said to Rama: 'O Rama, I have taken refuge in Thee.
Bless me that I may have pure devotion to Thy Lotus Feet and that I may
not be caught in the spell of Thy world-bewitching maya.'
"Once a dying bullfrog said to Rama: 'O Rama, when caught by a snake
I cry for Your protection. But now I am about to die, struck by Your
arrow.
Hence I am silent.'
"I used to see God directly with these very eyes, just as I see you.
Now
I see divine visions in trance.
"After realizing God a man becomes like a child. One acquires the
nature
of the object one meditates upon. The nature of God is like that of a
child.
As a child builds up his toy house and then breaks it down, so God acts
while creating, preserving, and destroying the universe. Further, as
the
child is not under the control of any guna, so God is beyond the three
gunas — sattva, rajas, and tamas. That is why paramahamsas keep five or
ten
children with them, that they may assume their nature."
Sitting on the floor in the room was a young man from Agarpara about
twenty-two years old. Whenever he came to the temple garden, he would
take the Master aside, by a sign, and whisper his thoughts to him. He
was a
new-comer. That day he was sitting on the floor near the Master.
MASTER (to the young man): "A man can change his
nature by imitating
another's character. He can get rid of a passion like lust by assuming
the feminine mood. He gradually comes to act exactly like a woman. I
have
noticed that men who take female parts in the theatre speak like women
or
brush their teeth like women while bathing. Come again on a Tuesday
or Saturday.
(To Prankrishna) "Brahman and Sakti are inseparable.
Unless you accept
Sakti, you will find the whole universe unreal — 'I', you', house,
buildings,
and family. The world stands solid because the Primordial Energy stands
behind it. If there is no supporting pole, no framework can be made,
and
without the framework there can be no beautiful image of Durga.
"Without giving up worldliness a man cannot awaken his spiritual
consciousness, nor can he realize God. He cannot but be a hypocrite as
long as
he has even a trace of worldly desire. God cannot be realized without
guilelessness.
Cherish love within your heart; abandon cunning and deceit:
Through service, worship, selflessness, does Rama's blessed vision come.
Even those engaged in worldly activities, such as office work
or business,
should hold to the truth. Truthfulness alone is the spiritual
discipline in
the Kaliyuga."
PRANKRISHNA: "Yes, sir. It is said in the Mahanirvana Tantra:
'O Goddess,
this religion enjoins it upon one to be truthful, self-controlled,
devoted to
the welfare of others, unagitated, and compassionate.'"
MASTER: "Yes. But these ideas must be assimilated."
Sri Ramakrishna was sitting on the small couch. He was in an ecstatic
mood and looked at Rakhal. Suddenly he was filled with the tender
feeling
of parental love toward his young disciple and spiritual child.
Presently he
went into samadhi. The devotees sat speechless, looking at the Master
with
wondering eyes.
Regaining partial consciousness, the Master said: "Why is my spiritual
feeling kindled at the sight of Rakhal? The more you advance toward
God,
the less you will see of His glories and grandeur. The aspirant at
first has a
vision of the Goddess with ten arms;
(The allusion is to the image of Durga.)
there is a great display of power in
that image. The next vision is that of the Deity with two arms; there
are
no longer ten arms holding various weapons and missiles. Then the
aspirant
has a vision of Gopala, in which there is no trace of power. It is the
form of
a tender child. Beyond that there are other visions also. The aspirant
then
sees only Light.
"Reasoning and discrimination vanish after the attainment of God and
communion with Him in samadhi. How long does a man reason and
discriminate?
As long as he is conscious of the manifold, as long as he is aware
of the universe, of embodied beings, of 'I' and you'. He becomes silent
when
he is truly aware of Unity. This was the case with Trailanga Swami.
(A noted monk of Benares whom the Master once
met. The Swami observed a vow of silence.)
"Have you watched a feast given to the brahmins? At first there is a
great
uproar. But the noise lessens as their stomachs become more and more
filled
with food. When the last course of curd and sweets is served, one hears
only the sound 'soop, soop' as they scoop up the curd in their hands.
There is
no other sound. Next is the stage of sleep — samadhi. There is no more
uproar.
(To M. and Prankrishna) "Many people talk of
Brahmajnana, but their
minds are always preoccupied with lower things: house, buildings,
money,
name, and sense pleasures. As long as you stand at the foot of the
Monument,
(A reference to the Ochterloney Monument in
Calcutta.)
so long do you see horses, carriages, Englishmen, and Englishwomen.
But when you climb to its top, you behold the sky and the ocean
stretching to infinity. Then you do not enjoy buildings, carriages,
horses,
or men. They look like ants.
"All such things as attachment to the world and enthusiasm for 'woman
and gold' disappear after the attainment of the Knowledge of Brahman.
Then comes the cessation of all passions. When the log burns, it makes
a
crackling noise and one sees the flame. But when the burning is over
and
only ash remains, then no more noise is heard. Thirst disappears with
the
destruction of attachment. Finally comes peace.
"The nearer you come to God, the more you feel peace. Peace, peace,
peace — supreme peace! The nearer you come to the Ganges, the more you
feel its coolness. You will feel completely soothed when you plunge
into
the river.
"But the universe and its created beings, and the twenty-four cosmic
principles, all exist because God exists. Nothing remains if God is
eliminated.
The number increases if you put many zeros after the figure one; but
the
zeros don't have any value if the one is not there."
The Master continued: "There are some who come down, as it were, after
attaining the Knowledge of Brahman — after samadhi — and retain the
'ego
of Knowledge' or the 'ego of Devotion', just as there are people who,
of
their own sweet will, stay in the market-place after the market breaks
up.
This was the case with sages like Narada. They kept the 'ego of
Devotion'
for the purpose of teaching men. Sankaracharya kept the 'ego of
Knowledge'
for the same purpose.
"God cannot be realized if there is the slightest attachment to the
things of
the world. A thread cannot pass through the eye of a needle if the
tiniest
fibre sticks out.
"The anger and lust of a man who has realized God are only appearances.
They are like a burnt string. It looks like a string, but a mere puff
blows
it away.
"God is realized as soon as the mind becomes free from attachment.
Whatever appears in the Pure Mind is the voice of God. That which is
Pure
Mind is also Pure Buddhi; that, again, is Pure Atman, because there is
nothing pure but God. But in order to realize God one must go beyond
dharma and adharma."
The Master sang in his melodious voice:
Come, let us go for a walk, O mind, to Kali, the Wish-fulfilling Tree,
And there beneath It gather the four fruits of life. . . .
Sri Ramakrishna went out on the southeast verandah of his room
and sat
down. Prankrishna and the other devotees accompanied him. Hazra, too,
was
sitting there. The Master said to Prankrishna with a smile: "Hazra is
not a
man to be trifled with. If one finds the big dargah here,
(Referring to himself.)
then Hazra is the
smaller dargah." All laughed at the Master's words. A certain
gentleman,
Navakumar by name, came to the door and stood there. At sight of the
devotees he immediately left. "Oh! Egotism incarnate!" Sri Ramakrishna
remarked.
About half past nine in the morning Prankrishna took leave of the
Master. Soon afterwards a minstrel sang some devotional songs to the
accompaniment
of a stringed instrument. The Master was listening to the songs
when Kedar Chatterji, a householder devotee, entered the room clad in
his
office clothes. He was a man of devotional temperament and cherished
the
attitude of the gopis of Vrindavan. Words about God would make him
weep.
The sight of Kedar awakened in the Master's mind the episode of
Vrindavan in Sri Krishna's life. Intoxicated with divine love, the
Master
stood up and sang, addressing Kedar:
Tell me, friend, how far is the grove
Where Krishna, my Beloved, dwells?
His fragrance reaches me even here;
But I am tired and can walk no farther. . . .
Sri Ramakrishna assumed the attitude of Sri Radha to Krishna and went into deep samadhi while singing the song. He stood there, still as a picture on canvas, with tears of divine joy running down his cheeks. Kedar knelt before the Master. Touching his feet, he chanted a hymn:
We worship the Brahman-Consciousness in the Lotus of the Heart,
The Undifferentiated, who is adored by Hari, Hara, and Brahma;
Who is attained by yogis in the depths of their meditation;
The Scatterer of the fear of birth and death,
The Essence of Knowledge and Truth, the Primal Seed of the world.
After a time the Master regained consciousness of the relative
world.
Soon Kedar took his leave and returned to his office in Calcutta.
At midday Ramlal brought the Master a plate of food that had been
offered in the Kali temple. Like a child he ate a little of everything.
Later in the afternoon several Marwari devotees entered the Master's
room, where Rakhal and M. also were seated.
A MARWARI DEVOTEE: "Sir, what is the way?"
MASTER: "There are two ways. One is the path of discrimination, the
other is that of love. Discrimination means to know the distinction
between
the Real and the unreal. God alone is the real and permanent Substance;
all else is illusory and impermanent. The magician alone is real; his
magic
is illusory. This is discrimination.
"Discrimination and renunciation. Discrimination means to know the
distinction between the Real and the unreal. Renunciation means to have
dispassion for the things of the world. One cannot acquire them all of
a
sudden. They must be practised every day. One should renounce 'woman
and gold' mentally at first. Then, by the will of God, one can renounce
it both mentally and outwardly. It is impossible to ask the people of
Calcutta to renounce all for the sake of God. One has to tell them to
renounce mentally.
"Through the discipline of constant practice one is able to give up
attachment
to 'woman and gold'. That is what the Gita says. By practice one
acquires uncommon power of mind. Then one doesn't find it difficult to
subdue the sense-organs and to bring anger, lust, and the like under
control.
Such a man behaves like a tortoise, which, once it has tucked in its
limbs,
never puts them out. You cannot make the tortoise put its limbs out
again,
though you chop it to pieces with an axe."
MARWARI DEVOTEE: "Revered sir, you just mentioned two paths. What is
the other path?"
MASTER: "The path of bhakti, or zealous love of God. Weep for God in
solitude, with a restless soul, and ask Him to reveal Himself to you.
MARWARI DEVOTEE: "Sir, what is the meaning of the worship of
the
Personal God? And what is the meaning of God without form or attribute?"
MASTER: "As you recall your father by his photograph, so likewise the
worship of the image reveals in a flash the nature of Reality.
"Do you know what God with form is like? Like bubbles rising on an
expanse of water, various divine forms are seen to rise out of the
Great
Akasa of Consciousness. The Incarnation of God is one of these forms.
The
Primal Energy sports, as it were, through the activities of a Divine
Incarnation.
"What is there in mere scholarship? God can be attained by crying to
Him with a longing heart. There is no need to know many things.
"He who is an acharya has to know different things. One needs a sword
and shield to kill others; but to kill oneself, a needle or a
nail-knife suffices.
"One ultimately discovers God by trying to know who this 'I' is. Is
this
'I' the flesh, the bones, the blood, or the marrow? Is it the mind or
the
buddhi? Analysing thus, you realize at last that you are none of these.
This
is called the process of 'Neti, neti', 'Not this, not this'. One can
neither
comprehend nor touch the Atman. It is without qualities or attributes.
"But, according to the path of devotion, God has attributes. To a
devotee
Krishna is Spirit, His Abode is Spirit, and everything about Him is
Spirit."
The Marwari devotees saluted the Master and took their leave.
At the approach of evening Sri Ramakrishna went out to look at the
sacred river. The lamp was lighted in his room. The Master chanted the
hallowed name of the Divine Mother and meditated on Her. Then the
evening worship began in the various temples. The sound of gongs,
floating
on the air, mingled with the murmuring voice of the river. Peace and
blessedness
reigned everywhere.