Nature of worldly people — Obstacles to samadhi — Path of the Impersonal God — God and His devotee — Divine Incarnations — The gopis' yearning for Krishna — God manifesting Himself as living beings — Master's childlike mood — Formless Brahman — Different manifestations of the Absolute — Master's vision of Gauranga — Parable of the grass-eating tiger — Nature of ecstatic love — God, incarnated as man, acts like man — Master's reminiscences of Mathura and Vrindavan — The six psychic centres — Proper time for spiritual unfoldment.
Tuesday, December 18, 1883
SRI RAMAKRISHNA was seated in his room
with his devotees. He spoke
highly of Devendranath Tagore's love of God and renunciation, and
then said, pointing to Rakhal and the other young devotees, "Devendra
is a good man; but blessed indeed are those young aspirants who, like
Sukadeva, practise renunciation from their very boyhood and think of
God
day and night without being involved in worldly life.
"The worldly man always has some desire or other, though at times he
shows much devotion to God. Once Mathur Babu was entangled in a
lawsuit. He said to me in the shrine of Kali, 'Sir, please offer this
flower to
the Divine Mother.' I offered it unsuspectingly, but he firmly believed
that
he would attain his objective if I offered the flower.
"What devotion Rati's mother had! How often she used to come here and
how much she served me! She was a Vaishnava. One day she noticed that I
ate the food offered at the Kali temple, and that stopped her coming.
Her
devotion to God was one-sided. It isn't possible to understand a person
right
away."
It was a winter morning, and the Master was sitting near the east door
of his room, wrapped in his moleskin shawl. He looked at the sun and
suddenly went into samadhi. His eyes stopped blinking and he lost all
consciousness of the outer world. After a long time he came down to the
plane of the sense world. Rakhal, Hazra, M., and other devotees were
seated near him.
MASTER (to Hazra): "The state
of samadhi is certainly inspired by love.
Once, at Syambazar, they arranged a kirtan at Natavar Goswami's house.
There I had a vision of Krishna and the gopis of Vrindavan. I felt that
my
subtle body was walking at Krishna's heels.
"I went into samadhi when similar devotional songs were sung at the
Hari Sabha in Jorashanko in Calcutta. That day they feared I might give
up the body."
After the Master had finished his bath, he again spoke of the ecstatic
love
of the gopis. He said to M. and the other devotees: "One should accept,
the
fervent attachment of the gopis to their beloved Krishna. Sing songs
like this:
Tell me, friend, how far is the grove
Where Krishna, my Beloved, dwells?
His fragrance reaches me even here;
But I am tired and can walk no farther."
Again he sang:
I am not going home, O friend,
For there it is hard for me to chant my Krishna's name. . . .
Sri Ramakrishna had vowed to offer green coconut and sugar to
Siddhesvari,
the Divine Mother, for Rakhal's welfare. He asked M. whether he would
pay for the offerings.
That afternoon the Master, accompanied by M., Rakhal, and some other
devotees, set out in a carriage, for the temple of Siddhesvari in
Calcutta. On
the way the offerings were purchased. On reaching the temple, the
Master
asked the devotees to offer the fruit and sugar to the Divine Mother.
They
saw the priests and their friends playing cards in the temple. Sri
Ramakrishna
said: "To play cards in a temple! One should think of God here."
From the temple the Master went to Jadu Mallick's house. Jadu was
surrounded by his admirers, well-dressed dandies. He welcomed the
Master.
MASTER (with a smile): "Why do you
keep so many clowns and flatterers with you?"
JADU (smiling): "That you may
liberate them." (Laughter.)
MASTER: "Flatterers think that the rich
man will loosen his purse-strings
for them. But it is very difficult to get anything from him. Once a
jackal saw
a bullock and would not give up his company. The bullock roamed about
and the jackal followed him. The jackal thought: 'There hang the
bullock's
testicles. Some time or other they will drop to the ground and I shall
eat
them.' When the bullock slept on the ground, the jackal lay down too,
and
when the bullock moved about, the jackal followed him. Many days passed
in this way, but the bullock's testicles still clung to his body. The
jackal
went away disappointed. (All laugh.) That also
happens to flatterers."
Jadu and his mother served refreshments to Sri Ramakrishna and the
devotees.
Wednesday, December 19, 1883
It was nine o'clock in the morning. Sri Ramakrishna was
talking to M.
near the bel-tree at Dakshineswar. This tree, under which the Master
had
practised the most austere sadhana, stood in the northern end of the
temple
garden. Farther north ran a high wall, and just outside was the
government
Magazine. West of the bel-tree was a row of tall pines that rustled in
the
wind. Below the trees flowed the Ganges, and to the south could be seen
the sacred grove of the Panchavati. The dense trees and underbrush hid
the temples. No noise of the outside world reached the bel-tree.
MASTER (to M.): "But one cannot
realize God without renouncing 'woman and gold'."
M: "Why? Did not Vasishtha say to Rama, 'O Rama, You may renounce the
world
if the world is outside God'?"
MASTER (smiling): "He said that to
Rama so that Rama might destroy
Ravana. Rama accepted the life of a householder and married to fulfil
that
mission."
M. stood there like a log, stunned and speechless.
Sri Ramakrishna went to the Panchavati on his way back to his room. M.
accompanied him. It was then about ten o'clock.
M: "Sir, is there no spiritual discipline leading to realization of the
Impersonal God?"
MASTER: "Yes, there is. But the path is
extremely difficult. After intense
austerities the rishis of olden times realized God as their innermost
consciousness and experienced the real nature of Brahman. But how hard
they
had to work! They went out of their dwellings in the early morning and
all
day practised austerities and meditation. Returning home at nightfall,
they
took a light supper of fruit and roots.
"But an aspirant cannot succeed in this form of spiritual discipline if
his
mind is stained with worldliness even in the slightest degree. The mind
must
withdraw totally from all objects of form, taste, smell, touch, and
sound.
Only thus does it become pure. The Pure Mind is the same as the Pure
Atman. But such a mind must be altogether free from 'woman and gold'.
When it becomes pure, one has another experience. One realizes: 'God
alone is the Doer, and I am His instrument.' One does not feel oneself
to be
absolutely necessary to others either in their misery or in their
happiness.
"Once a wicked man beat into unconsciousness a monk who lived in a
monastery. On regaining consciousness he was asked by his friends, 'Who
is feeding you milk?' The monk said, 'He who beat me is now feeding
me.'"
M: "Yes, sir. I know that story."
MASTER: "It is not enough to know it. One
must assimilate its meaning.
It is the thought of worldly objects that prevents the mind from going
into
samadhi. One becomes established in samadhi when one is completely rid
of worldliness. It is possible for me to give up the body in samadhi;
but I
have a slight desire to enjoy the love of God and the company of His
devotees. Therefore I pay a little attention to my body.
"There is another kind of samadhi, called unmana samadhi. One attains
it
by suddenly gathering the dispersed mind. You understand what that is,
don't you?"
M: "Yes, sir."
MASTER: "Yes. It is the sudden withdrawal
of the dispersed mind to the
Ideal. But that samadhi does not last long. Worldly thoughts intrude
and
destroy it. The yogi slips down from his yoga.
"At Kamarpukur I have seen the mongoose living in its hole up in the
wall. It feels snug there. Sometimes people tie a brick to its tail;
then the
pull of the brick makes it come but of its hole. Every time the
mongoose
tries to be comfortable inside the hole, it has to come out because of
the
pull of the brick. Such is the effect of brooding on worldly objects
that it
makes the yogi stray from the path of yoga.
"Worldly people may now and then experience samadhi. The lotus
blooms, no doubt, when the sun is up; but its petals close, again when
the
sun is covered by a cloud. Worldly thought is the cloud."
M: "Isn't it possible to develop both jnana and bhakti by the practice
of
spiritual discipline?"
MASTER: "Through the path of bhakti a man
may attain them both. If it
is necessary, God gives him the Knowledge of Brahman. But a highly
qualified aspirant may develop both jnana and bhakti at the same time.
Such is the case with the Isvarakotis — Chaitanya for example. But the
case
of ordinary devotees is different.
"There are five kinds of light: the light of a lamp, the light of
various
kinds of fire, the light of the moon, the light of the sun, and lastly
the
combined light of the sun and the moon. Bhakti is the light of the
moon,
and jnana the light of the sun.
"Sometimes it is seen that the sun has hardly set when the moon rises
in the sky. In an Incarnation of God one sees, at the same time, the
sun
of Knowledge and the moon of Love.
"Can everyone, by the mere wish, develop Knowledge and Love at the
same time? It depends on the person. One bamboo is more hollow than
another. Is it possible for all to comprehend the nature of God? Can a
one-seer pot hold five seers of milk?"
M: "But what about the grace of God? Through His grace a camel can
pass through the eye of a needle."
MASTER: "But is it possible to obtain
God's grace just like that? A beggar
may get a penny, if he asks for it. But suppose he asks you right off
for his
train fare. How about that?"
M. stood silent. The Master, too, remained silent. Suddenly he said:
"Yes, it is true. Through the grace of God some may get both jnana and
bhakti."
M. saluted the Master and went back to the bel-tree.
At midday, finding that M. had not yet returned, Sri Ramakrishna
started
toward the bel-tree; but on reaching the Panchavati he met M. carrying
his
prayer carpet and water-jug. M. saluted the Master.
Sri Ramakrishna said to M: "I was coming to look for you. Because of
your delay I thought you might have scaled the wall and run away. I
watched your eyes this morning and felt apprehensive lest you should go
away like Narayan Shastri. Then I said to myself: 'No, he won't run
away.
He thinks a great deal before doing anything.'"
The same night the Master talked to M., Rakhal, Latu, Harish, and a
few other devotees.
MASTER (to M.): "Some people give
a metaphysical, interpretation of the
Vrindavan episode of Sri Krishna's life. What do you say about it?"
M: "There are various opinions. What if there are? You have told us
the story of Bhishmadeva's weeping, on his bed of arrows, because he
could
not understand anything of God's ways.
"Again, you have told us that Hanuman used to say: 'I don't know any
thing about the day of the week, the position of the stars, and so
forth. I
only meditate on Rama.'
"Further, you have said to us that in the last analysis there are two
things
only: Brahman and Its Power. You have also said that, after the
attainment
of Brahmajnana, a man realizes these two to be One, the One that has no
two."
MASTER: "Yes, that is true. Your ideal
is to reach the goal. You may
reach it by going either through a thorny forest or along a good road.
"Diverse opinions, certainly exist. Nangta used to say that the monks
could not be feasted because of the diversity of their views. Once a
feast
was arranged for the sannyasis. Monks belonging to many sects were
invited.
Everyone claimed that his sect should be fed first, but no conclusion
could
be arrived at. At last they all went away and the food had to be given
to
the prostitutes."
M: "Totapuri was indeed a great soul."
MASTER: "But Hazra says he was an
ordinary man. There's no use in
discussing these things. Everyone says that his watch alone gives the
correct
time.
"You see, Naravan Shastri developed a spirit of intense renunciation.
He
was a great scholar. He gave up his wife and went away. A man attains
yoga
when he completely effaces 'woman and gold' from his mind. With some,
the characteristics of the yogi are well marked.
"I shall have to tell you something of the six centres. The mind of the
yogi passes through these, and he realizes God through His grace. Have
you
heard of the six centres?"
M: "These are the 'seven planes' of the Vedanta."
MASTER: "Not the Vedanta, but the Vedas.
Do you know what the six
centres are like? They are the 'lotuses' in the subtle body. The yogis
see
them. They are like the fruits and leaves of a wax tree."
M: "Yes, sir. The yogis can perceive them. I have read that there is a
kind of glass through which a tiny object looks very big. Likewise,
through
yoga one can see those subtle lotuses.'
Following Sri Ramakrishna's direction, M. spent the night in the hut at
the Panchavati. In the early hours of the morning he was singing alone:
I am without the least benefit of prayer and austerity, O Lord!
I am the lowliest of the lowly; make me pure with His hallowed touch.
One by one I pass my days in hope of reaching Thy Lotus Feet,
But Thee, alas, I have not found. . . .
Suddenly M. glanced toward the window and saw the Master
standing
there. Sri Ramakrishna's eyes became heavy with tears as M. sang the
line:
I am the lowliest of the lowly; make me pure with Thy hallowed touch.
M. sang again:
I shall put on the ochre robe and ear-rings made of conch-shell;
Thus, in the garb of a yogini, from place to place I shall wander,
Till I have found my cruel Hari. . . .
M. saw that the Master was walking with Rakhal.
Friday, December 21, 1883
In the morning the Master and M. were conversing alone under
the bel-tree.
The Master told him many secrets of spiritual discipline, exhorting him
to renounce "woman and gold". He further said that the mind at times
becomes one's guru.
After his midday meal the Master went to the Panchavati wearing a
beautiful yellow robe. Two or three Vaishnava monks were there, clad in
the
dress of their sect.
In the afternoon a monk belonging to the sect of Nanak arrived. He was
a worshipper of the formless God. Sri Ramakrishna asked him to meditate
as well on God with form. The Master said to him: "Dive deep; one does
not get the precious gems by merely floating on the surface. God is
without
form, no doubt; but He also has form. By meditating on God with form
one speedily acquires devotion; then one can meditate on the formless
God.
It is like throwing a letter away, after learning its contents, and
then setting
out to follow its instructions."
Saturday, December 22, 1883
Rakhal, Harish, M., and Latu had been staying with Sri
Ramakrishna at
Dakshineswar. About nine o'clock in the morning the Master was sitting
with them on the southeast verandah of his room, when Balaram's father
and Devendra Ghosh of Syampukur arrived.
A DEVOTEE: "Sir, how does one obtain love
for God?"
MASTER: "Go forward. The king dwells
beyond the seven gates. You can
see him only after passing through all the gates.
"At the time of the installation of Annapurna at Chanak, I said to
Dwarika Babu: "Large fish live in the deep water of a big lake. Throw
some
spiced bait into the water; then the fish will come, attracted by its
smell;
now and then they will make the water splash. Devotion and ecstatic
love
are like the spiced bait.
God sports in the world as man. He incarnates Himself as man — as in
the case of Krishna, Rama, and Chaitanya. Once I said to Keshab: The
greatest manifestation of God is in man. There are small holes in the
balk
or a field, where crabs and fish accumulate in the rainy season. If you
want
to find them you must seek them in the holes. If you seek God, you must
seek Him in the Incarnations.'
The Divine Mother of the Universe manifests Herself through this
three-and-a-half cubit man. There is a song that says:
O Mother, what a machine is this that Thou hast made!
What pranks Thou playest with this toy
Three and a half cubits high! . . .
"One needs spiritual practice in order to know God and
recognize Divine
Incarnations. Big fish live in the large lake, but to see them one must
throw
spiced bait in the water. There is butter in milk, but one must churn
the
milk to get it. There is oil in mustard-seed, but one must press the
seed to
extract the oil."
DEVOTEE: "Has God form, or is He formless?"
MASTER: "Wait, wait! First of all you must
go to Calcutta; then only will
you know where the Maidan, the Asiatic Society, and the Bengal Bank are
located. If you want to go to the brahmin quarter of Khardaha, you must
first of all go to Khardaha.
"Why should it not be possible to practise the discipline of the
formless
God? But it is very difficult to follow that path. One cannot follow it
without
renouncing 'woman and gold'. There must be complete renunciation, both
inner and outer. You cannot succeed in this path if you have the
slightest
trace of worldliness.
"It is easy to worship God with form. But it is not as easy as all that.
"One should not discuss the discipline of the Impersonal God or the
path
of knowledge with a bhakta. Through great effort perhaps he is just
cultivating
a little devotion. You will injure it if you explain away everything as
a mere dream.
"Kabir was a worshipper of the Impersonal God. He did not believe in
Siva, Kali, or Krishna. He used to make fun of them and say that Kali
lived
on the offerings of rice and banana, and that Krishna danced like a
monkey
when the gopis clapped their hands. (All laugh.)
"One who worships God without form perhaps sees at first the deity with
ten arms, then the deity with four arms, then the Baby Krishna with two
arms. At last he sees the Indivisible Light and merges in It.
"It is said that sages like Dattatreya and Jadabharata did not return
to the
relative plane after having the vision of Brahman. According to some
people,
Sukadeva tasted only a drop of that Ocean of Brahman-Consciousness. He
saw and heard the rumbling of the waves of that Ocean, but he did not
dive into It.
"A brahmachari once said to me, 'One who goes beyond Kedar cannot
keep his body alive.' Likewise, a man cannot preserve his body after
attaining Brahmajnana.1
The body drops off in twenty-one days.
"There was an infinite field beyond a high wall. Four friends tried to
find
out what was beyond the wall. Three of them, one after the other,
climbed
the wall, saw the field, burst into loud laughter, and dropped to the
other
side. These three could not give any information about the field. Only
the
fourth man came back and told people about it. He is like those who
retain
their bodies, even after attaining Brahmajnana, in order to teach
others.
Divine Incarnations belong to this class.
"Parvati was born as the daughter of King Himalaya. After Her birth She
revealed to the king Her various divine forms. The father said: 'Well,
Daughter, You have shown me all these forms. That is nice. But You have
another aspect, which is Brahman. Please show me that.' 'Father,'
replied
Parvati, 'if you seek the Knowledge of Brahman, then renounce the world
and live in the company of holy men.' But King Himalaya insisted.
Thereupon
Parvati revealed Her Brahman-form, and immediately the king fell
down unconscious.
"All that I have just said belongs to the realm of reasoning. Brahman
alone
is real and the world illusory — that is reasoning. And everything but
Brahman
is like a dream. But this is an extremely difficult path. To one who
follows it even the divine play in the world becomes like a dream and
appears unreal; his 'I' also vanishes. The followers of this path do
not accept
the Divine Incarnation. It is a very difficult path. The lovers of God
should
not hear much of such reasoning.
"That is why God incarnates Himself as man and teaches people the
path of devotion. He exhorts people to cultivate self-surrender to God.
Following the path of devotion, one realizes everything through His
grace —
both Knowledge and Supreme Wisdom.
"God sports in this world. He is under the control of His devotee.
'Syama, the Divine Mother, is Herself tied by the cord of the love of
Her
devotee.'
"Sometimes God becomes the magnet and the devotee the needle, and
sometimes the devotee becomes the magnet and God the needle. The
devotee
attracts God to him. God is the Beloved of His devotee and is under his
control.
"According to one school, the gopis of Vrindavan, like Yasoda, had
believed
in the formless God in their previous births; but they did not derive
any
satisfaction from this belief. That is why later on they enjoyed so
much
bliss in the company of Sri Krishna in the Vrindavan episode of His
life.
One day Krishna said to the gopis: 'Come along. I shall show you the
Abode of the Eternal. Let us go to the Jamuna for a bath.' As they
dived
into the water of the river, they at once saw Goloka. Next they saw the
Indivisible Light. Thereupon Yasoda exclaimed: 'O Krishna, we don't
care
for these things any more. We would like to see You in Your human form.
I want to take You in my arms and feed You.'
"So the greatest manifestation of God is through His Incarnations. The
devotee should worship and serve an Incarnation of God as long as He
lives
in a human body. 'At the break of day He disappears into the secret
chamber
of His House.'
Not all, by any means, can recognize an Incarnation of God. Assuming a
human body, the Incarnation falls a victim to disease, grief, hunger,
thirst,
and all such things, like ordinary mortals. Rama wept for Sita.
'Brahman
weeps, entrapped in the snare of the five elements.'
"It is said in the Purana that God, in His Incarnation as the Sow,
lived
happily with His young ones even after the destruction of Hiranyaksha.2
As the Sow, He nursed them and forgot all about His abode in heaven. At
last Siva killed the sow body with his trident, and God, laughing
aloud,
went to His own abode."
In the afternoon Bhavanath arrived. Rakhal, M., Harish, and other
devotees were in the room.
MASTER (to Bhavanath): "To love an
Incarnation of God — that is
enough. Ah, what ecstatic love the gopis had for Krishna!"
Sri Ramakrishna began to sing, assuming the attitude of the gopis:
O Krishna! You are the Soul of my soul. . . .
Then he sang:
I am not going home, O friend,
For there it is hard for me to chant my Krishna's name. . . .
And again:
O Friend, that day I stood at my door as You were going to the woods. . . .
Continuing, the Master said: "When Krishna suddenly
disappeared in
the act of dancing and playing with the gopis, they were beside
themselves
with grief. Looking at a tree, they said: "O tree, you must be a great
hermit.
You must have seen Krishna. Otherwise, why do you stand there
motionless,
as if absorbed in samadhi?' Looking at the earth covered with green
grass, they said: 'O earth, you must have seen Krishna. Otherwise, why
does your hair stand on end? You must have enjoyed the thrill of His
touch.' Looking at the madhavi creeper, they said, 'O madhavi, give us
back
our Madhava!' The gopis were intoxicated with ecstatic love for
Krishna.
Akrura came to Vrindavan to take Krishna and Balarama to Mathura. When
they mounted the chariot, the gopis clung to the wheels. They would not
let the chariot move."
Saying this, Sri Ramakrishna sang, assuming the attitude of Akrura:
Hold not, hold not the chariot's wheels!
Is it the wheels that make it move?
The Mover of its wheels is Krishna,
By whose will the worlds are moved. . . .
Sunday, December 23, 1883
At nine o'clock in the morning Sri Ramakrishna was seated on
the southwest
porch of his room, with Rakhal, Latu, M., Harish, and. some other
devotees. M. had now been nine days with the Master at Dakshineswar.
Earlier in the morning Manomohan had arrived from Konnagar on his way
to Calcutta. Hazra, too, was present.
A Vaishnava was singing. Referring to one of the songs, Sri Ramakrishna
said: "I didn't enjoy that song very much. The songs of the earlier
writers
seem to me to have more of the right spirit. Once I sang for Nangta at
the
Panchavati: To arms! To arms, O man! Death storms your house in battle
array.' I sang another: 'O Mother, I have no one else to blame: Alas! I
sink
in the well these very hands have dug.'
"Nangta, the Vedantist, was a man of profound knowledge. The song
moved him to tears though he didn't understand its meaning. Padmalochan
also wept when I sang the songs of Ramprasad about the Divine Mother.
And he was truly a great pundit."
After the midday meal Sri Ramakrishna rested a few minutes in his room.
M. was sitting on the door. The Master was delighted to hear the music
that was being played in the nahabat. He then explained to M. that
Brahman
alone has become the universe and all living beings.
MASTER: "Referring to a certain place,
someone once said to me: 'Nobody
sings the name of God there. It has no holy atmosphere.' No sooner did
he
say this than I perceived that it was God alone who had become all
living
beings. They appeared as countless bubbles or reflections in the Ocean
of
Satchidananda.
"Again, I find sometimes that living beings are like so many pills made
of Indivisible Consciousness. Once I was on my way to Burdwan from
Kamarpukur. At one place I ran to the meadow to see how living beings
are sustained. I saw ants crawling there. It appeared to me that every
place
was filled with Consciousness."
Hazra entered the room and sat on the floor.
MASTER: "Again, I perceive that living
beings are like different flowers
with various layers of petals. They are also revealed to me as bubbles,
some
big, some small."
While describing in this way the vision of different divine forms, the
Master went into an ecstatic state and said, "I have become! I am
here!"
Uttering these words he went into samadhi. His body was motionless. He
remained in that state a long time and then gradually regained partial
consciousness of the world. He began to laugh like a boy and pace the
room. His eyes radiated bliss as if he had seen a wondrous vision. His
gaze
was not fixed on any particular object, and his face beamed with joy.
Still
pacing the room, the Master said: "I saw the paramahamsa who stayed
under
the banyan tree walking thus with just such a smile. Am I too in that
state
of mind?"
He sat on the small couch and engaged in conversation with the Divine
Mother.
MASTER: "I don't even care to know.
Mother, may I have pure love for Thy Lotus Feet!
(To M.) "One attains this state immediately after
freeing oneself
of all grief and desire.
(To the Divine Mother) "Mother, Thou hast done away
with my worship.
Please see, Mother, that I don't give up all desire. Mother, the
paramahamsa
is but a child. Doesn't a child need a mother? Therefore Thou art the
Mother and I am the child. How can the child live without the Mother?"
Sri Ramakrishna was talking to the Divine Mother in a voice that would
have melted even a stone. Again he addressed Her, saying: "Mere
knowledge
of Advaita! I spit on it! Thou dost exist as long as Thou dost keep the
ego
in me. The paramahamsa is but a child. Doesn't a child need a mother?"
M. sat there speechless and looked at the divine manifestation in the
Master. He said to himself: "The Master is an ocean of mercy that knows
no motive. He has kept himself in the state of a paramahamsa that he
might,
as teacher, awaken the spiritual consciousness of myself and other
earnest
souls."
M. further thought: "The Master says, 'Advaita — Chaitanya —
Nityananda';
that is to say, through the knowledge of the Non-dual Brahman one
attains Consciousness and enjoys Eternal Bliss. The Master has not only
attained the knowledge of non-duality but is in a state of Eternal
Bliss. He
is always drunk with ecstatic love for the Mother of the Universe."
With folded hands Hazra looked at the Master and said every now and
then: "How blessed you are! How blessed you are!"
MASTER (to Hazra): "But you have
hardly any faith; you simply live
here to add to the play, like Jatila and Kutila."
In the afternoon M. paced the temple garden alone. He was deeply
absorbed
in the thought of the Master and was pondering the Master's words
concerning the attainment of the exalted state of the paramahamsa,
after
the elimination of grief and desire. M. said to himself: "Who is this
Sri
Ramakrishna, acting as my teacher? Has God embodied Himself for our
welfare? The Master himself says that no one but an Incarnation can
come
down to the phenomenal plane from the state of nirvikalpa samadhi."
Monday, December 24, 1883
Waken, O Mother! O Kundalini, whose nature
is Bliss Eternal!
Thou art the serpent coiled in sleep, in the lotus of the Muladhara.
"Ramprasad achieved perfection through singing. One obtains
the vision
of God if one sings with yearning heart."
M: "Grief and distress of mind disappear if one has these experiences
but once."
MASTER: "That is true. Distress of mind
disappears for ever. I shall tell
you a few things about yoga. But you see, the mother bird doesn't break
the shell until the chick inside the egg is matured. The egg is hatched
in
the fullness of time. It is necessary to practise some spiritual
discipline. The
guru no doubt does everything for the disciple; but at the end he makes
the disciple work a little himself. When cutting down a big tree, a man
cuts
almost through the trunk; then he stands aside for a moment, and the
tree
falls down with a crash.
"The farmer brings water to his field through a canal from the river.
He
stands aside when only a little digging remains to be done to connect
the
field with the water. Then the earth becomes soaked and falls of
itself, and
the water of the river pours into the canal in torrents.
"A man is able to see God as soon as he gets rid of ego and other
limitations.
He sees God as soon as he is free from such feelings as 'I am a
scholar',
'I am the son of such and such a person', 'I am wealthy', 'I am
honourable',
and so forth.
"'God alone is real and all else unreal; the world is illusory' — that
is
discrimination. One cannot assimilate spiritual instruction without
discrimination.
"Through the practice of spiritual discipline one attains perfection,
by the
grace of God. But one must also labour a little. Then one sees God and
enjoys bliss. If a man hears that a jar filled with gold is buried at a
certain
place, he rushes there and begins to dig. He sweats as he goes on
digging.
After much digging he feels the spade strike something. Then he throws
away the spade and looks for the jar. At the sight of the jar he dances
for
joy. Then he takes up the jar and pours out the gold coins. He takes
them
into his hand, counts them, and feels the ecstasy of joy. Vision —
touch —
enjoyment. Isn't it so?"
M: "Yes, sir."
The Master was silent a moment and then went on.
MASTER: "Those who are my own will come
here even if I scold them.
Look at Narendra's nature! At first he used to abuse my Mother Kali
very
much. One day I said to him sharply, 'Rascal! Don't come here any
more.'
He slowly left the room and prepared a smoke. He who is one's own will
not
be angry even if scolded. What do you say?"
M: "That is true, sir."
MASTER: "Narendra is perfect from his very
birth. He is devoted to the ideal of the formless God."
M. (smiling): "Whenever he comes here he brings
along great excitement."
Sri Ramakrishna smiled and said, "Yes, excitement indeed."
The following day was Tuesday; the ekadasi day of the lunar fortnight.
It
was eleven o'clock in the morning and the Master had not yet taken his
meal. M., Rakhal, and other devotees were sitting in the Master's room.
MASTER (to M.): "One should fast
on the eleventh day of the lunar fortnight. That purifies
the mind and helps one to develop love of God. Isn't that so?"
M: "Yes, sir."
MASTER: "But you may take milk and puffed
rice. Don't you think so?"