Pictures at Nanda's house — Master praises his host — Master's prayer — Nature of worldly enjoyment — Is God partial? — Liberation for all — Nature of "I" — God, the Wish-fulfilling Tree — About the afterlife — Narada and Hanuman — Different degrees of divine manifestation — Visit to the brahmani's house — Brahmani's indescribable joy — Master's visit to Ganu's mother — He praises the music — Martha and Mary — Master about himself — Master and Jesus — About Dwija.
Tuesday, July 28, 1885
IT WAS ABOUT THREE O'CLOCK in the afternoon. Sri Ramakrishna
was sitting
in Balaram's drawing-room with the devotees. Among others, Binode,
Rakhal, the younger Naren, and M. were present. The Master had
come to Balaram's house in the morning and had taken his midday meal
there. At Balaram's house the Deity was worshipped as Jagannath, and
the
members of the family partook of the food offered to the Deity. Sri
Ramakrishna used to say that the food at Balaram's house was very pure.
Narayan and certain other devotees had remarked to the Master that
Nanda Bose, an aristocrat of Baghbazar, had many pictures of gods and
goddesses in his house. Hence Sri Ramakrishna intended to pay a visit
to
Nanda's house in the afternoon. A brahmin woman devoted to the Master
lived near by. She often came to see him at Dakshineswar. She was
extremely sorrowful over the death of her only daughter, and the Master
had
agreed to go to her house. She had invited him with great earnestness.
From
her house the Master was to go to the house of Ganu's mother, another
devotee.
The younger Naren had said to Sri Ramakrishna that he would not be
able to visit him often on account of his having to prepare for his
examinations.
MASTER (to the younger Naren): "I didn't send for
you today."
THE YOUNGER NAREN
(smiling): "What can be done about it now?"
MASTER: "Well, my child, I don't want to interfere with your studies.
You may visit me when you have leisure."
The Master said these words as if he were piqued.
He was ready to go to Nanda Bose's house. A palanquin was brought tor
him, and he got into it repeating the name of God. He had put on a pair
of black varnished slippers and a red-bordered cloth. As Sri
Ramakrishna
sat down in the palanquin, M. put the slippers by his side. He
accompanied
the palanquin on foot. Paresh joined them.
They entered the gate of Nanda's house, crossed the spacious square,
and stopped in front of the building. The members of the family greeted
the Master. He asked M. to hand him the slippers and then got out of
the
palanquin and entered the large hall. It was a very spacious room.
Pictures
of gods and goddesses were hanging on all sides.
Nanda Bose and his brother Pasupati saluted Sri Ramakrishna. The
devotees of the Master also arrived. Girish's brother Atul came, and
Prasanna's
father, who was a frequent visitor at Nanda's house, was there.
Prasanna
was a devotee of the Master.
The Master looked at the pictures. M. and a few other devotees stood
around him. Pasupati was explaining the pictures to them.
The first picture was of Vishnu with four arms. At the very sight of it
Sri Ramakrishna was overwhelmed with ecstasy; he sat down on the floor
and remained a few minutes in that spiritual mood.
In the second picture Rama was blessing Hanuman, with His hand on
the devotee's head. Hanuman's gaze was fixed on Rama's Lotus Feet. The
Master looked at the picture a long time and exclaimed with great
fervour,
"Ah me! Ah me!"
The third picture was of Krishna standing with flute to His lips under
the kadamba tree.
The fourth was of Vamana, the Dwarf, who was an Incarnation of
Vishnu. The Master looked intently at this picture.
Next the Master looked at a picture of Nrisimha,1
and then at one of Krishna with a herd of cows. Krishna was tending the
cows with His
cowherd friends on the bank of the Jamuna at Vrindavan. M. said, "A
lovely picture!"
Sri Ramakrishna then saw pictures of Dhumavati, Shorasi, Bhuvanesvari,
Tara, and Kali. He said: "All these portray the terrible aspects of the
Divine
Mother. If one keeps these pictures, one should worship them. But you
must be lucky, to be able to hang them like that on the wall."
At the sight of Annapurna's picture, Sri Ramakrishna exclaimed with
great fervour, "Grand! Grand!"
The next picture was one of Radhika as monarch. She was seated on a
throne in the nikunja grove, surrounded by her woman attendants. Sri
Krishna guarded the entrance of the grove as her officer.
Next was Sri Krishna's picture. Then came a picture of Sarasvati, the
goddess of learning and music. It was in a glass case. She was in an
ecstatic
mood, playing melodies on the vina.
After seeing the pictures, Sri Ramakrishna went to the master of the
house and said: "I am very happy today. It is grand! You are a real
Hindu.
You have these pictures instead of English ones. I am surprised!"
Nanda Bose was seated. He said to the Master: "Please take a seat. Why
are you standing?"
Sri Ramakrishna sat down. He said: "These are very large pictures.
You are a real Hindu."
NANDA: "I have European pictures also."
MASTER (smiling): "They are not like these. I am
sure you don't pay
much attention to them."
A picture of Keshab's Navavidhan hung on the wall. Suresh Mitra, a
beloved householder disciple of the Master, had had it painted. In this
picture
Sri Ramakrishna was pointing out to Keshab that people of different
religions proceed to the same goal by different paths.
MASTER: "That was painted for Surendra."
PRASANNA'S FATHER (smiling): "You too are in that
picture."
MASTER (smiling): "Yes, it contains everything. This
is the ideal of
modern times."
As he spoke Sri Ramakrishna manifested great spiritual fervour. He was
in an ecstatic mood, talking to the Divine Mother. A few minutes later
he
said, like a drunkard, "I am not unconscious." Looking at the house, he
said: "It is a huge mansion. But what does it consist of? Bricks,
timber, and clay."
A little later he said, "I am very happy to see these pictures of gods
and
goddesses." He added: "It is not good to keep pictures of the terrible
aspects
of the Divine Mother. If one does, one should worship them."
PASUPATI (smiling): "Well, things will go on as long
as She keeps them
going."
MASTER: "That is true. But one should think of God. It is not good to
forget Him."
NANDA: "But how little we think of God!"
MASTER: "One thinks of God through His grace."
NANDA: "But how can we obtain God's grace? Has He really the power to
bestow grace?"
MASTER (smiling): "I see. You think as the
intellectuals do: one reaps
the results of one's actions. Give up these ideas. The effect of karma
wears
away if one takes refuge in God. I prayed to the Divine Mother with
flowers in my hand: 'Here, Mother, take Thy sin; here, take Thy virtue.
I don't want either of these; give me only real bhakti. Here, Mother,
take
Thy good; here, take Thy bad. I don't want any of Thy good or bad; give
me only real bhakti. Here, Mother, take Thy dharma; here, take Thy
adharma. I don't want any of Thy dharma or adharma; give me only real
bhakti. Here, Mother, take Thy knowledge; here, take Thy ignorance. I
don't
want any of Thy knowledge or ignorance; give me only real bhakti. Here,
Mother, take Thy purity; here, take Thy impurity. Give me only real
bhakti.'"
NANDA: "Can God violate law?'
MASTER: "What do you mean? He is the Lord of all. He can do
everything. He. who has made the law can also change it.
"But you may very well talk that way. Perhaps you want to enjoy the
world, and that is why you talk that way. There is a view that a man's
inner spirit is not awakened unless he is through with enjoyment. But
what is there to enjoy? The pleasures of 'woman and gold'? This moment
they exist and the next moment they disappear. It is all momentary. And
what is there in 'woman and gold'? It is like the hog plum — all stone
and skin. If one eats it, one suffers from colic. Or like a sweetmeat.
Once
you swallow it, it is gone."
Nanda remained silent a few minutes. Then he said: "Oh, yes. People
no doubt talk that way. But is God partial? If things happen through
God's
grace, then I must say God is partial."
MASTER: "But God Himself has become everything — the universe and
its living beings. You will realize it when you have Perfect Knowledge.
God
Himself has become the twenty-four cosmic principles: the mind,
intellect"
body, and so forth. Is there anyone but Himself to whom He can show
partiality?"
NANDA: "Why has He assumed all these different forms? Why are some
wise and some ignorant?"
MASTER: "It is His sweet will."
ATUL: "Kedar Babu puts it nicely. Once a man asked him, 'Why has
God created the world?' He replied, 'I was not present at the
conference
where God made the plans of His creation.'"
MASTER: "Oh! It is His sweet will."
So saying, the Master sang:
O Mother, all is done after Thine own sweet will;
Thou art in truth self-willed, Redeemer of mankind!
Thou workest Thine own work; men only call it theirs.
Thou it is that holdest the elephant in the mire;
Thou, that helpest the lame man scale the loftiest hill.
On some Thou dost bestow the bliss of Brahmanhood;
Yet others Thou dost hurl into this world below.
Thou art the Moving Force, and I the mere machine;
The house am I, and Thou the Spirit dwelling there;
I am the chariot, and Thou the Charioteer:
I move alone as Thou, O Mother, movest me.
He continued: "The Divine Mother is full of bliss. Creation, preservation, and destruction are the waves of Her sportive pleasure. Innumerable are the living beings. Only one or two among them obtain liberation. And that makes Her happy.
Out of a hundred thousand kites, at best but one or two break free;
And Thou dost laugh and clap Thy hands, O Mother, watching them!
Some are being entangled in the world and some are being liberated from it.
How many are the boats, O mind,
That float on the ocean of this world!
How many are those that sink!"
Come, let us go for a walk, O mind, to
Kali, the Wish-fulfilling Tree,
And there beneath It gather the four fruits of life.
"You must go to the Kalpataru and pray. Only then will you
obtain the
fruits. Only then will the fruits fall from the tree. Only then will
you be able
to gather them. There are four fruits: dharma, artha, kama, and moksha.
The jnanis seek the fruit of liberation; and the bhaktas, love of God,
love
without any motive behind it. They seek neither dharma nor artha nor
kama.
"You ask about the after-life. According to the Gita
you will become in
the next life what you think of in the hour of death. King Bharata was
very
much grieved over his pet deer; he died repeating the word 'deer';
therefore
he was reborn as a deer. That is why day and night a man should
practise
worship, japa, meditation, and other spiritual exercises. Only then, by
virtue
of practice, will he be able to think of God in the hour of death. If
one
dies thus, thinking of God, one will acquire God's nature.
"Keshab Sen, too, asked me about the after-life. I said to him also,
'What
need have you of all these calculations?' Then I said: 'As long as a
man
does not realize God, he will return to the world. The potter puts his
clay
jars and lids out in the sun to bake. If cattle trample them underfoot,
he
throws away the baked ones. But he collects the soft ones, mixes them
with
more clay, puts them on the wheel, and makes new vessels from them.'"
The master of the house had not yet shown any sign of serving Sri
Ramakrishna
with refreshments. Sri Ramakrishna himself said to Nanda: "You
see, you should offer me something to eat. That is why the other day I
said
to Jadu's mother: 'Look here. Give me something to eat.' Otherwise it
brings
harm to the householder."
Nanda Bose ordered some sweets. Sri Ramakrishna began to eat them.
Nanda and the others were watching the Master and his actions. After
eating the sweets, Sri Ramakrishna wanted to wash his hands. The plate
on
which the sweets were served had been placed on the sheet covering the
carpet; so the Master could not wash his hands in the plate. A servant
brought a brass bowl for him to use. But Sri Ramakrishna would not use
it,
since only rajasic people used such things. He asked the servant to
take it
away. The master of the house said to him, "Please wash your hands."
Absent-mindedly Sri Ramakrishna said: "What? Shall I wash my hands?"
The Master walked to the south verandah. He asked M. to pour water
into his hands. M. poured water from a jug. The Master dried his hands
with his cloth and returned to the room. Then he was offered betel-leaf
on
a tray. But the other guests had already taken some from the same tray;
the
Master did not accept any.
NANDA (to the Master): "May I say something?"
MASTER (smiling): "What?"
NANDA: "Why didn't you eat any betel-leaf? Everything else you did was
proper; this alone seems to be otherwise."
MASTER: "Before I eat anything I offer it to God.2
It is a notion of mine."
NANDA: "But the betel-leaf would have gone to God all the same."
MASTER: "There is the path of jnana, and there is also the path of
bhakti.
According to the jnani everything can be eaten by applying the
Knowledge of Brahman;3
but the follower of bhakti keeps a little distinction." (Between holy
and unholy.)
NANDA: "But I still maintain that you did not act rightly."
MASTER (smiling): "It is just a notion of mine. What
you say is also right.
That too is supported by the scriptures."
Sri Ramakrishna was warning Nanda of flatterers.
MASTER: "Beware of flatterers. They are after their own selfish
purpose.
(To Prasanna's father) Do you live in this house?"
PRASANNA'S FATHER: "No, sir, I am a neighbour. Won't you have a smoke?"
MASTER (very humbly): "No, please enjoy yourself. I
don't feel like
smoking now."
Nanda's house was like a palace. Sri Ramakrishna said to him: "Jadu
hasn't such a big house. I told him so the other day."
NANDA: "He has built a new house at Jorashanko."
Sri Ramakrishna was encouraging Nanda.
MASTER (to Nanda): "Though you are a householder,
still you have kept
your mind on God. Is that a small thing? The man who has renounced the
world will pray to Him as a matter of course. Is there any credit in
that?
But blessed indeed is he who, while leading a householder's life, prays
to
God. He is like a man who finds an object after removing a stone
weighing twenty maunds.
"One should pray to God, establishing with Him an appropriate
relationship.
Hanuman's love for God was mixed with knowledge; but Narada's
love for God was pure and unadulterated.
"Rama asked Hanuman, 'Hanuman, what attitude do you cherish toward
Me when you worship Me?' Hanuman answered: 'Sometimes I see that You
are the whole and I am a part; sometimes I see that You are the Master
and
I am Your servant. But Rama, when I have the Knowledge of Reality, then
I find that You are I and I am You.'
"Rama said to Narada, 'Ask a favour of Me.' Narada said, 'O Rama, grant
me the boon that I may have genuine love for Thy Lotus Feet and that I
may not come under the spell of Thy world-bewitching maya!'"
Sri Ramakrishna was about to take his leave.
MASTER (to Nanda): "According to the Gita
a man who is honoured and
respected by many people possesses a special power of God. You have
divine power."
NANDA: "All men have the same power."
MASTER (sharply): "You all say the same thing. Can
all men ever
possess power to the same degree? God no doubt dwells in all beings as
the
all-pervading Spirit, but the manifestations of His Power are different
in different beings.
"Vidyasagar, too, said the same thing. He said, 'Has God given some
more power and some less?' Thereupon I said to him: 'If there are not
different manifestations of His Power, then why have we come to see
you?
Have you grown two horns on your head?'"
Sri Ramakrishna rose. The devotees followed him. Pasupati accompanied
them to the door.
The Master arrived at the house of the brahmin lady who was
grief-stricken on account of her daughter's death. It was an old brick
house.
Entering the house, the Master passed the cow-shed on his left. He and
the
devotees went to the roof, where they took seats. People were standing
there
in rows. Others were seated. They were all eager to get a glimpse of
Sri Ramakrishna.
The brahmani had a sister; both of them were widows. Their brothers
also lived in the house with their families. The brahmani had been busy
all day making arrangements to receive Sri Ramakrishna. While the
Master
was at Nanda Bose's house she had been extremely restless, going out of
the house every few minutes to see if he was coming. He had promised to
come to her place from Nanda's. Because of his delay she had thought
perhaps he would not come at all.
Sri Ramakrishna was seated on a carpet. M., Narayan, Jogin, Devendra,
and others were seated on a mat. A few minutes later the younger Naren
and some other devotees arrived. The brahmani's sister came to the
Master
and saluted him. She said, "Sister has just gone to Nanda Bose's house
to
inquire the reason for your delay in coming here. She will return
presently.
A sound was heard downstairs and she exclaimed, "There she comes!" She
went down. But it was not the brahmani.
Sri Ramakrishna sat there smiling, surrounded by devotees.
M. (to Devendra): "What a grand sight! All these
people — young and
old, men and women — standing in lines, eager to have a glimpse of him
and hear his words."
DEVENDRA (to the Master): "M. says that this place
is better than Nanda's.
The devotion of these people is amazing."
Sri Ramakrishna laughed.
The brahmani's sister exclaimed, "Here comes sister!"
The brahmani came and saluted the Master. She was beside herself with
joy. She did not know what to say. In a half-choked voice she said:
"This joy
is too much for me. Perhaps I shall die of it. Tell me, friends, how
shall I
be able to live? I did not feel such a thrill even when Chandi, my
daughter,
used to visit the house accompanied by liveried footmen, with armed
guards
lining both sides of the street. Oh! Now I have no trace of my grief at
her
death. I was afraid he (Meaning Sri Ramakrishna.) would not come. Then
I thought that, if that
happened, I should throw into the Ganges all the things I had arranged
for his
reception and entertainment. I should not speak to him any more. If he
visited a place, I should go there, look at him from a distance, and
then come away.
"Let me go and tell everybody how happy I am. Let me go and tell
Yogin of my good luck."
Still overwhelmed with joy she said: "A labourer won a hundred thousand
rupees in a lottery. The moment he heard the news he died of joy.
Yes, he really and truly died. I am afraid the same thing is going to
happen
to me. Please bless me, friends, or else I shall certainly die."
M. was amazed to see the brahmani's sincere joy and her ecstatic mood.
He was about to take the dust of her feet. "What are you doing?" she
exclaimed and saluted M.
The brahmani was extremely happy at the sight of the devotees. She
said:
"I am so happy to see you all here. I have brought the younger Naren;
without him, who would there be to make us laugh?"
She was talking like this when her sister came up and said: "Come down,
sister! How can I manage things if you stay here? Can I do it all by
myself?"
But the brahmani was overwhelmed with joy. She could not take her eyes
from the Master and the devotees.
After a while she very respectfully took Sri Ramakrishna to another
room
and offered him sweets and other refreshments. The devotees were
entertained on the roof.
It was about eight o'clock in the evening. Sri Ramakrishna was ready to
leave. When he came to the door, the brahmani asked her sister-in-law
to
salute the Master. Next, one of her brothers took the dust of the
Master's
feet. Referring to him, she said: "He is one of my brothers. He is a
fool."
No, no!" said the Master. "They are all good."
A man showed the way with a light. At places it was dark. Sri
Ramakrishna stood in front of the cow-shed. The devotees gathered
around him.
M. saluted the Master, who was about to go to the house of Ganu's
mother.
Sri Ramakrishna was seated in the drawing-room of Ganu's mother's
house.
It was on the street floor. The room was used by a concert party.
Several
young men played on their instruments now and then for the pleasure of
the Master.
It was eight-thirty In the evening. Moonlight flooded the streets, the
houses, and the sky. It was the first day after the full moon.
The brahmani, who had also come, was visiting the drawing-room and the
inner apartments alternately. Every few minutes she would come to the
door
of the drawing-room and look at the Master. Some youngsters from the
neighbourhood also looked at him through the windows. The people of the
locality, young and old, came thronging to see the saint.
The younger Naren saw the boys in the street climbing the windows. He
said to them: "Why are you here? Get away! Go home!" The Master said
tenderly, "Let them stay." Every now and then he chanted: "Hari Om!
Hari Om!"
The floor of the drawing-room was covered with a carpet. The young
musicians sat on it and sang:
O Kesava, bestow Thy grace
Upon Thy luckless servants here!
O Kesava, who dost delight
To roam Vrindavan's glades and groves! . . .
MASTER: "Ah, how sweet the music is! How melodious the violin
is! How
good the accompaniments are! (Pointing to a boy) He
and the flutist seem
to be a nice pair."
The orchestra went on playing. After it was over, Sri Ramakrishna said
joyfully, '"It is very fine indeed." Pointing to a young man, he said,
"He
seems to know how to play every instrument." He said to M., "They are
all good people."
After the concert the young musician said to the devotees, "We should
like to hear some of you sing." The brahmani stood near the door. She
said;
"None of them knows how to sing. Perhaps Mohin Babu can sing. But he
will not sing before the Master."
A YOUNG MAN: "Why? I can sing even before my father."
THE YOUNGER NAREN (laughing):
"But he has not yet advanced that far."
All laughed. A few minutes later the brahmani said to Sri Ramakrishna,
"Please come inside."
MASTER: "Why?"
BRAHMANI: "The refreshments are served there. Please come."
MASTER: "Why not bring them here?"
BRAHMANI: "Ganu's mother requests you to bless the room with the dust
of your feet. Then the room will be turned into Benares, and anyone
dying
in it will have no trouble hereafter."
Sri Ramakrishna went inside accompanied by the brahmani and the young
men of the family. The devotees were strolling outside in the
moonlight.
M. and Binode were pacing the street south of the house and recalling
the
various incidents in the life of their beloved Master.
Sri Ramakrishna had returned to Balaram's house. He was resting in the
small room to the west of the drawing-room. It was quite late, almost a
quarter to eleven.
Sri Ramakrishna said to Jogin, "Please rub my feet gently." M. was
sitting
near by. While Jogin was rubbing his feet the Master said suddenly: "I
feel hungry. I shall eat some farina pudding."
The brahmani had accompanied the Master and the devotees to Balaram's
house. Her brother knew how to play the drums. Sri Ramakrishna said,
"It
will serve our purpose to send for her brother when Narendra or some
other
singer wants to sing."
Sri Ramakrishna ate a little pudding, Jogin and the other devotees left
the room. M. was stroking the Master's feet. They talked together.
MASTER (referring to the brahmani and her relatives):
"Ah! How happy
they were!"
M: "How amazing! A similar thing happened with two women at the
time of Jesus. They too were sisters, and devoted to Christ. Martha and
Mary."
MASTER (eagerly): "Tell me the story."
M: "Jesus Christ, like you, went to their house with His devotees. At
the
sight of Him one of the sisters was filled with ecstatic happiness. It
reminds
me of a song about Gauranga:
My two eyes sank in the sea of Gora's heavenly beauty
And did not come back to me again;
Down went my mind, as well, forgetting how to swim.
"The other sister, all by herself, was arranging the food to
entertain Jesus.
She complained to the Master, saying: 'Lord, please judge for Yourself
—
how wrong my sister is! She is sitting in Your room and I am doing all
these
things by myself.' Jesus said: 'Your sister indeed is blessed. She has
developed the only thing needful in human life: love of God.'"
MASTER: "Well, after seeing all this, what do you feel?"
M: "I feel that Christ, Chaitanyadeva, and yourself — all three are one
and the same. It is the same Person that has become all these three."
MASTER: "Yes, yes! One! One! It is indeed one. Don't you see that it is
He alone who dwells here in this way."
As he said this, Sri Ramakrishna pointed with his finger to his own
body.
M: "You explained clearly, the other day, how God incarnates Himself on
earth."
MASTER: "Tell me what I said."
M: "You told us to imagine a field extending to the horizon and beyond.
It extends without any obstruction; but we cannot see it on account of
a
wall in front of us. In that wall there is a round hole. Through the
hole
we see a part of that infinite field."
MASTER: "Tell me what that hole is."
M: "You are that hole. Through you can be seen everything — that
Infinite Meadow without any end."
Sri Ramakrishna was very much pleased. Patting M.'s back, he said: "I
see you have understood that. That's fine!"
M: "It is indeed difficult to understand that. One cannot quite grasp
how
God, Perfect Brahman that He is, can dwell in that small body."
The Master quoted from a song:
Oh, no one at all has found out who He is;
Like a madman from door to door He roams,
Like a poor beggar He roams from door to door.
M: "You also told us about Jesus."
MASTER: "What did I say?"
M: "You went into samadhi at the sight of Jesus Christ's picture in
Jadu
Mallick's garden house. You saw Jesus come down from the picture and
merge in your body."
Sri Ramakrishna was silent a few moments. Then he said to M.: "Perhaps
there is a meaning in what has happened to my throat [referring to the
sore
in his throat]. This has happened lest I should make myself light
before all;
lest I should go to all sorts of places and sing and dance."
Sri Ramakrishna began to talk about Dwija.
MASTER: "He didn't come today. Why?"
M: "I asked him to come. He said he would. I don't know why he didn't."
MASTER: "He has great yearning. Well, he must be someone belonging
to this. (Meaning the circle of the Master's devotees.) Isn't that so?"
M: "Yes, sir, it must be so. Otherwise, how could he have such
yearning?"
Sri Ramakrishna lay down inside the mosquito curtain. M. fanned him.
The Master turned on his side. He told M. how God incarnates Himself in
a human body. He told him, further, about his, M.'s, spiritual ideal.
MASTER: "At the beginning I too passed through such states that I did
not
see divine forms. Even now I don't see them often."
M: "Among all the forms God chooses for His lila, I like best His play
as a human being."
MASTER: "That is enough. And you are seeing me."