Mother: Yes, they are rotting there. Purna was forced to marry. His relatives threatened him, saying, "If you go to him (referring to Sri Ramakrishna), we will smash his carriage with stones and brick-bats when he comes to Calcutta."
Disciple: Well, they might have married. Nag Mahasaya also married. But to have children and lead a worldly life!
Mother: Perhaps they had some such desires. Let me tell you one thing. There is great complexity in this creation. The Master does one thing through one man and another thing through another person. Oh, it is so inscrutable! But even a householder can be an Isvarakoti. What is the harm?
Radhu was ill. She had pain and fever. The Mother was worried about her and said, "She cannot get well when I am alive. Who will look after her when I am gone? Will she live then?"
Disciple: What a crowd of devotees the whole day! You could not get a moment's respite.
Mother: Day and night, I say to the Master, "Please lessen this rush. Let me have a little rest." But I hardly get it. It will be like this for the few more days I am in this body. The message of the Master has spread everywhere; therefore so many people come here. There was such a massive crowd at Bangalore! As soon as I got down from the train, there was an incessant shower of flowers all the way. The road became full of flowers. Such crowds used to visit the Master also during his last days. I try to persuade people so earnestly, saying, "Have initiation from your family 'preceptor (Kulaguru). They expect something from you. I do not expect anything." But they will not leave me. They weep and it moves, my heart. Well, I am nearing the end; these few days I continue to live, will be spent in this manner.
Disciple: Oh, no, Mother! Why should you say that? You are well. You have no particular ailment. Why do you, then, want to leave this world? Never say that again.
During those few days the Mother appeared very sad and indifferent about things.
Golap-Ma was having an argument with someone downstairs.Hearing that, the Mother asked, "What is going on there?"
Disciple: Golap-Ma is scolding somebody.
Mother: It is not good to be so much talkative. One only invites misery for oneself by constantly dwelling on defects in everything. Golap has lost all sense of delicacy in her obsession